o̲̅n̲̅e̲̅ s̲̅h̲̅o̲̅t̲̅'s̲̅

~Gaming, Love~

"See this- they got married in this game and then in real life", I used to laugh at those posts. Like, how can one fall for someone in-game? A freaking game? Come on, it's funny if you think of it. With whom they fell? the in-game character? Which isn't even real, huh?

Well, that was until I fell for someone- in-game. Yeah! I know- I used to laugh and I feel bad now, for laughing before. I had no idea about it... I never thought of it.

I never was a fan of games until I found this one game. I was a fan of survival series and to, you know feel it a little bit I went on the hunt of some survival open-world games. That's when I come across this game named Life after.

At the beginning of it- I thought I'm playing with bots, hah. Funny? I know! As I said, I wasn't a gaming person but slowly I realized, the people I'm running into, are real.

Well, long story short. By the time I realized how it works and all that shit, I had joined a camp- a guild- one family.

My worst habit? I hate reading what the dialogue is- I just click, click, and click. In this way, I joined a camp through crowdfunding. I funded a camp and I became a member of it as soon as it was established. Later, it comes out the camp is Malay.

There I messed up!

I wasn't Malaysian.

Well, who cares? Google translator exists now, no worries. I moved on with the same fact. Learning basic words, I started communicating with them and some know English so it was working. They helped me a lot like very much- I survived in the game because of my family in there.

Made so many friends and few enemies haha.

Made cohabit- the in-game partner and I enjoyed it very much. I had a bad past and somewhere that was the reason I was playing this game, to get rid of the tensions of real life. It helped very much. Then came the day when my first partner left the camp... Well, it wasn't a problem for me. I wasn't taking anything seriously, it's just a game, right? Plus, he was a kid. No feelings. I was happy, that is all that mattered.

Found a new partner, played with him day and night gaming... Had fun. Goal achieved. He left.

No problem...

Solo gaming is fun! I enjoyed it too. I had campmates who were good. They started teaming up with me... Making sure that I don't feel left out. Carrying me everywhere they would go. I enjoyed it more, with them- than I enjoyed with one partner.

Than~ the 2 campmates whose company I enjoyed the most- left the camp. Well, I was affected! Haha, for the first time I felt like it's boring now, I felt bad, but they still invited me for everything.

And I left my camp for them.

The camp in which I was for almost a year- never left it for any reason, I left it for them. I joined them in the camp they were.

Even though I felt weird in the camp, felt like an outsider- still I stayed there just to be with them. Why? I don't know. I just felt I have to be with them. One of them was like a father figure for me so- yea the second one. I cohabitate with him. Another partner, normal. But this time- it wasn't normal. I felt different. I was happier. I didn't play the game like I used to- I followed him. I will online just to play with him. Things, I never thought I would do- I did them.

Silly- I know. I was in love? Yes, of course. Whenever he would call me, I felt tingling in my stomach. That's what love does. But not every love story is meant to complete so was mine. I couldn't tell him what I FELT FOR HIM. I would ask for hugs all the time, I loved it. He would always give me, asking one thing. What do you feel? And I would answer, I feel happy!

He would ask, nothing more?

And I changed the topic.

In the end, he left the game- I'm stuck here with the memories... Play with them, miss him, and cry.

Why I never confessed?

Because we weren't possible. :)