When we finish the game we realized it was 9:50 almost time for lights out. We put up the game and say our goodnights. I walked up to my room and turned on the shower. I got my pajamas and a towel as the water warmed up. I got in and couldn't seem to calm down for some reason. It's probably just nerves. I tell Alexa to turn on my playlist as I take my shower and start to drain out the world.
1 hour later
When I got out, I got dressed in an oversized hoodie, underwear, and some short shorts. I lay on my bed trying to think of what spell I should try to do next. I was mumbling while I wrote down what spells I already knew and the spells I would like to try.
When I heard a creaking sound. I turn on my side to look at both doors when something falls on my shoulder. It was my mini mirror. It broke on impact with my shoulder. Shards of glass were now all over my bed. I start taking off my sheets. All the lights were off so I didn't even realize I had several cuts all over my arms where my sleeves had been rolled up and a bigger would on my neck that was bleeding. (This has actually happened to me) When I finally got all my sheets off the bed I went to put them in my hamper in the bathroom knowing that I couldn't wash them this late at night.
When I see my reflection in the sink mirror is when I realized I was bleeding. I had a flash of when I was dead. Remembering all the blood surrounding my body and the look on Kacchan's face when he found me. I have seen my blood after that day before but Katsuki was always right next to me to tell me it wasn't happening again. That I wasn't dying, it's just a minor cut he can put a Band-Aid on. That I was safe and that he was okay. But he's asleep and my phone is dead.
⚠️TRIGGER WARNING⚠️
The voices in Izuku's head
Izuku
You are a burden. You made him feel worthless. Why should he help a little crybaby like you? You are worthless. You are a useless monster whose only power is dying. That's all you're good for. That's all you'll ever be good for. You're stupid if you think someone as powerful and handsome as Shoto Todoroki will ever love someone as worthless and pathetic as you. You deserve those cuts. You should make some more.
"Get out of my head. I'm not worthless. Dying is not my only power. I'm a witch who can do amazing spells." I yelled not wanting to hear the voices again.
For how long? You are only a half-witch, who wasn't even born with magic. Tsu and Ochaco are really witches. With really magic. One day they'll leave you behind. They all will and you'll be all alone once again. Because everyone leaves you in the end. Your dad did and he's your own flesh and blood. So why wouldn't everyone else? Neither one of your moms even realize you were even dead. No one truly cares about you. I'm all you got kid. Everyone else is faking care. They just see you as a burden that is always dragging them down with you.
"Midoriya. Midoriya are you okay? I heard screaming. IZUKU what happened to you? You're covered in blood. Did someone do this to you?" It was Shoto but he can't really be here the doors locked. It must be another hallucination.
"Go away. I get it I'm not good enough to be with him. Now get out of my head. I don't need a cruel hallucination to tell me I'm weak and worthless. I know that already. But I can't die. I tried to remember. So what else am I supposed to do?" I screamed and cried. Not knowing what else I can do other than try to wait out the voices.
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U.A. Monster Academy
FanfictionThis is an AU that I created where instead of having quirks they are monsters. Deku kills him self and this is how he finds out that he's a Phoenix and can't die. At first Katsuki was the only one who knew. But when something happens who will help I...
