We were on the plane and I was thinking about what I want to say to nico. I mean I haven't talked to him since that day he called me. I didn't want to, he can't just call me and think that I'm gonna forgive him like that.
"Hey" I heard jack come in and I smiled as he laid down next to me.
"What's you thinking about" he asked and I shrugged my shoulders.
"I don't know I'm just nervous to see him that's all" I said and he nodded.
"I know, we all are and we'll be there with you and so will the guards" he said and I nodded as Zion walked in. He tapped my stomach and smiled at me.
"I'll be outside" he said and I nodded as he got up and walked out to the front of the plane.
"Hey" he said and I smiled as he laid next to me.
"You okay" he asked me and I shrugged looking at him.
"I don't know it's just, I'm having to face him after 8 years" I said and he nodded.
"I'm just scared" I shrugged again.
"I bet but your not alone, you have all of us to support, right" I nodded.
"So there's no need to be scared, we're gonna be there to support no matter what" he says and I nodded and smiled as he kissed my head and wrapped his arm around me letting me fall asleep.
~ten minutes later~
I woke up seeing Zion pulling a blanket over me trying not to wake me up. He saw me awake and smiled kissing my head placing the blanket on me.
"We're almost there go back to sleep" he whispered to me and I nodded getting comfortable.
~at the prison room~
We are finally here at the prison my brothers at and I'm in a big interrogation room with guards behind me. I had on some purple sweats with a white tank top and purple jacket zipped up half way and my air court purple air Jordan 1s.
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I sat in a chair when the door opened showing two guards holding nicos harms and him in cuffs and his orange jump suit. I started crying because I ain't seen him since he got locked up and right now it's just hard.
They took off his cuffs and sat him down across from me. I couldn't look at him but I had to stay strong, so I lifted my head looking at him and he was crying too. I wiped my eyes and sighed coughing a bit.
"Hey Zani" he said.
"Hey" I said in a whisper.
"How you been since you got in here" I asked him.
"It's been hard" he said and I nodded.
"Please stop crying" he said to me.
"How nico, how can I do that when I'm facing the person who put hands on me? How am I suppose to not break down when your the reason I'm scared of you" I let out.
"You don't have to anymore, I won't hurt you anymore and I know I won't because I've changed" he ushered to me.
"How am I suppose to know that Nico, huh? How am I suppose to know your a new person when you lied to me saying you wouldn't hurt me again feeding me your lies when you clearly couldn't fucking do that. So tell me" I snapped.
"You don't understand how hard it was for me" he shook his head crying.
"No you don't understand the pain you've caused me, you don't understand how it felt for your own little sister to be afraid of her own brother. Do you understand how afraid I was when you would come home" he didn't say anything.
"Exactly, you never even cared about what you were doing to me nico. You constantly put me in fear of when you came home. I would sit in the corner for hours because you told me to and if I didn't do it you would hurt me again. I did everything you asked because I was afraid of you would do to me" then he decided to snap at me.
"Well what the fuck did you want me to do Zani, you expected me to be the best big brother to you huh" he snapped at me scaring me a bit.
"No I expected you to at least be a big brother to me but you didn't, you were everything but that nico. You would constantly just beat me for the stupidest shit ever all I wanted was for you to love me but you couldn't even do that" I screamed at him.
He thinks he couldn't love me when all he had to do was comfort me.
"All I wanted from you was to wrap my arms and tell me that it was gonna be okay, i wanted to be the person to enjoy your hugs, I wanted to go out and have fun with you, I wanted you to tell me you loved me at least once, I wanted you to be a regular overprotective brother nico that was all I wanted" I yelled at him as I stood up.
"I do love you" he said lowly.
"No you don't, if you love me you wouldn't be here listening to your baby sister call out all your wrongs" I cried.
"You couldn't even give me a childhood that I've always wanted. I would trade every fucking day just for you to be the living brother I thought you would be. I wanted to be able to hug you without being afraid, I wanted to cuddle with you when I had nightmares but instead you were my nightmare nico you could never give that to me because you made the dumbest decision when I was little. I can't take none of that back because of your fucking mistakes" I yelled at him.
I was so out of breath because of my crying and yelling that he didn't say anything.
"You can't bring none of that back nico" I said.
"I love you nico, but I can't let you come back" I said and that made him mad.
"Why not" he snapped flipping the table making the guards grab him but I told them to let him go.
"What did you possibly want me to do, I didn't know how to be a big brother so what was I supposed to do.
"Try" I yelled at him.
"You could've at least tried but you couldn't do that" I yelled in his face. I just wanted to cry so I did and he brought his arms around me.
"I just wanted my own brother to love me" I said into his chest.
"I always have loved you" he said and I shook my head.
"No you didn't" I said to him but I hugged him back. Even tho he did those things to me I want to give him a chance but if he screws up once he's going back.
