The Regretful Decision

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As i opened my eyes , i was in this white room.It was so white that i could not see a thing.It was cold ,very cold that my hands and feet numbed.

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"Where am i?" I closed my eyes and thought back to where i was before i got here.Now , i remember.Tears fell on my eyes.I cried

It was 8:40 pm.I was getting ready for the night.My boyfriend invited me to watch a movie at rasmus.I was putting on my make up,brushing my hair , and dress up when my phone rang.It was he.
"Baby , where are you?" He asked me in a worried voice ."Im still here at my house.Just wait for me at the entrance ok?" I simply replied.

I know that he could wait a few more minutes for me.I was facing the mirror thinking , thinking of what should i do.Should i hide it from him? Or should i tell him again my freedom? Yes , i will tell him.I guess my freedom is more important than his feelings.I must tell him i know it sounds crazy but i love him! That's why i must tell him.

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Its already 8:45 , i musyt be going now.

As i arrived at the movie house , i saw him standing there at the entrance.Waiting for me patiently.I was walking near him i saw his sad and lonely face.

He was not like this before.He's always been happy with me and our relationship.I could still remember the time when i first met him at that place, Redwood Street.He was cute, hondsome, a typical gentleman.

On that very day that we met , i felt something for him.I know that it was just a crush but for me it's more than just a crush.He started courting me personally on the third

day , I answered him.

We were so happy being with each other always.It's as if time freezes if we are together.I love him as much as he loves me , but i know that love is just not enough, coz that's three years ago , and everybody changes.

As i approached him , he hurriedly

rushed towards me . . and hugged me tightly.It was so tight that i could feel his heartbeat.His heartbeat was fast, its as if something's going to happen that night.

He hugged me tightly like he never hugged me like that before.As he pushed back , i saw a tear sliding down , his cheek.I was touched , i felt guilty.Should i go on and do what ive planned to do ?

Yes , i should " Baby , thank god you're here.I was really worried about you!" he said."Why would you be worried about me?Do you care for me?" I said.

"Why do you say that?" He asked in a faint voice."Why? Do you want to know why? I really think that you already knew the answer.It was you who did this.And now you want to know why?" I replied angrily.

"What have i done to you that made you do this to me?" He asked."Will you stop asking me these nonsense question? I mean nothing to you , and so you are to me!"I shouted "I dont love you anymore Dane!"

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As i said this , i walked out from him.I left him there standing faceless in the crowd.Now i've done that i must have done.I had never been guilty if what i said to him.It was just right.Now im free.

I continued my walk in the cold lonely street.The night was freezing.I wish somebody's with me, to hold my hand and hug me while walking here.Suddenly i , felt that a car was following me . It was his car.I looked back and saw him driving.I continued walking.

"Hana! Please listen to me! Let me explain." He was shouting at the opened window of his car. "Why are you still following me? Can't you understand? I dont love you anymore ! So please dane leave me alone!" He stopped his car and grabbed my hand.