So last night started off like every other night I lay in bed worrying myself to sleep only to succumb to the wonderful world of my waking nightmares. So for some time now I've been married to the most wonderful man and Iove him with all my heart but i have an admission of guilt even I can't tell him for fear that he wont understand. I cant let go of the memories of my past loves. Daily I dream of how different it would be had I ended up marrying the ex. I digress. So to explore last nights dream. I've often had this recurring dream of a dead girl who's looks vary ad minimally as possible. She constantly accompanies me on my adventures but I still do not know her. She haunts a shower stall room. As weird as it sounds, welcome to my warped possessed mind... every shower stall I walk past is a different type of shower with a different theme color scheme and products, I always pick one of the stalls with a window cause when I was little my gram had a window in her shower and I found it the most intriguing thing to shower with the water on hot blast with the window cracked in the middle of winter... any way I went to the shower and had a break down and the girl who's name I dont know came to me and tried helping me. I felt wrong isn't it supposed to be me helping her? So I rolled over and Lost that dream only to move onto the next... This one fucks with me... I was at a hybrid mix of my moms house and my old best friends moms house. So I'm walking up the stairs and the loving room was to my right so I'm walking up the stairs to go outside to smoke a cigarette and who else pops up but my ex. My ex started chasing me around the house trying to profess his love for me now mind you I quit smoking a year ago I woke up this morning craving a cigarette from the stress he put me through in my nightmare. The whole time having this nightmare I knew I was married to the love of my life and my best friend and it just felt so wrong. So needless to say I cant quite process the meaning of them dreams yet but in gonna obsess on it a little have a great day yall!
