I woke up, sadly. I got up and took a cold shower to hopefully remove the ugly dark circles under my eyes. As I got out I looked in the mirror. "I hate you," I hissed at myself, it was the truth. I couldn't fix it. No matter how hard I tried...somehow, I couldn't learn to love myself.
I got dressed in a white crop top and baggy jeans. I put on some really heavy makeup to cover up all the bruises and the remaining darkness under my eyes.
As I walked downstairs I heard someone crying...probably another poor woman that made the mistake of coming home with my father. I really did feel bad but...at least they didn't have to live with him.
After I made my little sister's breakfast I walked up to get Andrea. It seemed as though my father had the same idea.
"What the hell do you think you're doing dad??? I thought I told you to stay away from Andrea! I don't want to be sent to foster care but if you don't stay away from her, I'll call the cops." I said threatening him.
I would never do that, at least not until I was 18. I pushed him out of the way and flinched when he slapped my butt. It was unnerving...but I had to tolerate it.
I walked into Andrea's room and picked her up, "Hey Princess! Ready to get out of here for the day?" I asked as I pushed her gorgeous blonde hair out of her face. She nodded frantically, rubbing her ocean blue eyes.
Me and Andrea weren't that different when it came to looks. I wasn't going to complain. I liked the way I looked...most of the time. I had blue eyes too, they used to be bright but now they were a dark, foggy blue. I was slim and had a decent body. Andrea and I had small noses like our mum but everything else was our dad's except for Andy's hair. She had brilliant blonde hair that was like silk made from gold...while I had dirty blonde hair. Don't get me wrong my hair wasn't ugly or anything. The natural blonde highlights made it very pretty. But if I could trade hair with Andy...I would.
"Okay, let's get going." I said as I walked outside.
I buckled her in and tickled her tummy. Her giggle was the most beautiful sound in the world. It was like God had made it just to make everyone in the world feel joy. I loved it and I adored the person that came with it.
"Okay baby girl, I'll pick you up right after school and we can spend the night at Kynia's" I said when we got to my aunt's house. I looked at my baby sister and teared up. I hated leaving her alone.
"Bye sissy!" she beamed. I nuzzled my nose against her's and she buried her face in my neck. God I loved this girl.
As I drove to school I thought about my dad. And then all the memories of yesterday came back.
"Alyna!! Get your ass in my room, NOW!!" I knew what was happening. I didn't care. The pain was gone and I was numb. Once I got out of his room I ran into my room crying. I looked down at my arm. The word Slut was carved yet again into my arm, deeper than last time. I walked into my bathroom and cleaned the cut like I would do with any of the self inflicted ones. I cried and looked into the mirror, replaying the words my father had said earlier. "Your nothing. You will never be enough and no one will ever love you like I loved your mother. If your little sister hadn't come into this world she would be alive now and since you won't let me hurt her, you'll have to pay the price!" slap! ... I sobbed and cried out, holding my ribs.
One thing was for sure. Even though I had let him do it for years, over and over and over again; he wasn't going to break me anymore.
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