*DISCONTINUED* 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘 𝐎𝐅 𝐔𝐒 | grixie

003. - breakup

     It had been about a week since mine and taylers big fight and I hadn't heard anything from him personally, but some other hype house members had been telling me that he had been with sommer ray a lot at the house at that they were getting quite touchy. I had also seen some of their tiktoks together and they were also very touchy, I would look through the comments and there were a lot of ship comments. This made me pretty mad, I knew me at tayler were honestly barely dating at this point but we technically still were and it was really starting to look like he was cheating. So today after a lot of convincing from Addison, the sway boys (whom I had been hanging out with quite a lot recently), charli, and my parents I decided I was finally just gonna go break up with him. I was beyond done with his bullshit and just need this chapter of my life to be to be over.

     Along side whatever was going on with tayler and sommer I was getting tons of hate from the video of me slapping tayler. While there was some comments telling me I didn't deserve this or hyping me up there was a lot (mostly from Tayler, Nate, ondreaz, and Tony's fans) telling me that calling me a bitch, saying I was being "disrespectful" or a whore saying that I cheated on Tayler with griffin, and overall just a bunch of other really shitty things. Most of the last week though I pretended to remain unbothered by it on social media and in front of most of my friends I wasn't actually unbothered, it actually really had affected me. I had spent most of the last week silently crying when I was alone at night in my room. Normally hate didn't affect me this much but this time it had, I didn't know if it had to do with the fact the I was getting so much of it or what but this time it really cut deep.

    I had barely talked to Addison or charli all week and had only posted once or twice on Instagram all of which were old photoshoot pics I had never posted. I knew they were worried about me but I couldn't be bothered with it I was just so overwhelmed with the hate and what was going on with tayler it was almost like I was locked away in my own little world. That was till yesterday morning when griffin came bursting in my room at 8:30 in the morning.

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"DIXIE"  I heard griffin yell waking me up, but I just ignored it at rolled over not wanting to get up.

"DIXIE" I heard again but continued to ignore him.

"Dixie I know ur awake so get your lazy ass up we're going somewhere"

"Fuck off"

"No now get up we're going out"

"nope sleeping

"Dixie D'amelio get ur ass up before I come over there and get you out of bed my self"

"Ugh fine what time is it"

"8:30

"8:30! Yeah fuck that I'm going back to sleep it's way to early"

"Nope come on D'amelio we're going some where"

"I said fuck off johnson I'm sleeping"

"Alright I guess I'll get you out of bed myself"  

     and with that I was picked up off my bed despite my desperate attempts to stay there and thrown over griffins shoulder.

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Along with getting close with all the other sway boys I had gotten extremely close with griff since the party. Recently he had been the once person I would go to with stuff. I had talked to him more then I had Addison and char this past week (while it still wasn't extremely often like prior, it was more then I was talking to my best friend and sister) griffin has helped me a with the hate as much as he could seeing as I wasn't really letting anyone in. I was stubborn in that sense, when ever something was bothering me or I was hurting emotionally I would lock myself away in my own little world and barely let anyone in till I had fixies the issue myself. Though this meant I was strong and very independent It had also resulted in a lot of lost friendships and relationships, so this had really taught me who was actually gonna stick around and put up with me when I was like this, addi was one person who had dealt with me like this once or twice before and had also slightly helped me through it, charli was one but she was related to me so she didn't really have a choice, and griffin was also proving to be another person who was gonna stick through it and try to help me though whatever I was going through.