Finding Me

Chapter 1- The end of a chapter? Or a new beginning?

   "I'm not happy." Stated Emitt with a meaning in his voice that let you know he wasn't joking.

   Addyson gazed into his deep chocolate eyes as her chest constricted and she felt a ball form in the back of her throat, preventing her from uttering any words.

   "I can't do this anymore Addy, I can't. I love you but I just cannot be in a relationship with you anymore." Emitt whispered as he stared into the mixed green eyes of a very silent girl.

   Finally finding enough sense to speak Addyson exhales through her nose before speaking, "If you love me than why are you leaving me? I can be better, just tell me what you want, and what you need..." she trailed off as her face became wet and she could no longer speak.

   "What I need is space, and what I want isn't you, not any more." He stated coldly as he focused his eyes on the window behind her.

   Tears still streaming like a river Addyson trains her eyes on Emitt's face, studying his Mexican features. "I love you." Addyson whispers as she reaches out to Emitt, trying to grip what little she has left of him.

   Taking Addyson's hand and setting it by her side, Emitt stands and says, "Just know our break up isn't your fault. You really picked up and are perfect to me, i'm just not pulling my weight and that resulted in a gap that just cannot be filled. I want to be happy, and happy isn't with you."

   Addyson steadies her breathing before speaking, "So you're just going to throw away the last four years we've shared together? I know we can be happy, please just let me try harder, ill do more!" Addyson is in complete hysterics towards the end of her sentence.

   Emitt lets Addyson cry into his chest and when she calms he steps away and places a kiss on her forehead before looking down at her face hes grown so accustomed to and saying, "Goodbye Addy. I love you, but this is it. The end of our chapter if you may, but I need this and I hope some day you'll understand." Emitt's eyes become a little blury before he lets her go.

   Grabbing his coat, Emitt walks towards the door and opens it, but before walking out her turns to see her staring at the floor silently crying. In that moment he wants to take it all back, but he knows he needs to stay strong and go through with it. Opening his mouth he hears himself say, "Hey, if we're both 25 and single, do you want to get married?"

   Addyson glances up at his goofy lopsided grin and she finds herself wearing his same expression before answering, "Yeah, that would be great."

   Addyson watches as Emitt nods and finally walks out of the door. Addyson waits until she hears the lock fall into place before collapsing on her living room couch.

   "What am i going to do with myself?" She questions with sadness dripping on every word.

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