Can We Dance For A Last Time?

Chapter 10

- "Tris you have to eat!"

A cancer... a fucking cancer...

How? Why? Everything was perfect between us. Why does life suck?

I'm afraid, afraid to lose her, to leave her alone. It's unfair. She's young, kind, beautiful, always here for the ones she loves and some people all around the world are horrible, but everything is alright for them. Destiny is everything to me, I can't imagine my life without her.

- "Tristan Oliver Vance Evans!

- Woof!"

And what about her parents, her sister... everyone who love her. I won't live without her, if she dies I'll probably k...

- "TRISTAN!"

Wait! What happens? Who is screaming?

James and Kirstie are looking at me worried, very very worried.

- "We've been trying to talk to you for five minutes, said James.

- Eat your eggs please, said Kirstie. We need you to eat, or you'll be to the hospital soon.

- At least I'll be with Destiny.

- Shut up Tris!"

What? Did James really say this.

- James, said Kirstie, don't say that.

- What Kirstie? This is just the fucking truth!

- James, keep calm. NOW!"

James immediately leaves the house with Moochie and I'm here, in his kitchen with his fiancé, it's unfair cause it's not James who should have left, it's me. Why did he react like that?

Kirstie is still looking at me but doesn't dare talk to me. To be honest, I don't know what to say either, I feel so weird. James just left the house cause of me, and I'm still here. I don't have my place here. James is never angry, and it hurts me so much to see him so bad cause of me. I don't deserve him, I don't deserve anyone:

- "Tristan, where do you go?

- I leave Kirstie, I can't stay here. James shouldn't have left the house because of me.

- James shouldn't have talked to you like that, it's impolite.

- Maybe, but I deserve it. I have a bad behaviour whereas you are so kind with me.

- Tris, we can understand. You live something difficult at the moment and you need time for you, for Destiny.

- Yes, but sometimes it's too much. I feel like I'm selfish, I never ask how you guys, are feeling.

- It's OK, don't worry about this. I'll talk to James.

- No Kirstie, thanks but I'll do it. He's probably to the park with Moochie. I'm gonna try to find him.

- OK. Good luck."

On my way, I'm lost with my mind. I don't know what to think about this.

It's been two weeks since I know about Destiny's cancer. At the beginning I couldn't stop crying and to be honest, I still do it but it sounds different cause now I feel angry cause of the life, cause it's unfair. I feel mad at myself cause I hurt James whereas he doesn't deserve this. He did so much things to me and still do it. And look at how I am with him. Life sucks, everything sucks, cancer sucks.

Destiny started a cure a few days ago but the doctor is really pessimist, to him it's probably too late and Destiny only have a few months to live. Why does life always persecute those who are happy?

Arrived at the park, I'm looking for James but I don't see him and I'm finally alone here. So, I sit on a bench and wait for the time to spend. After that, I'll go to see Destiny in the hospital. She needs me and I also need her. And I'm crying... again. I close my eyes and try to keep calm...:

- "Tris? What are you doing here? Is everything OK?"

This voice...:

- Brad and... Harvey? What are you guys doing here?

- Us... nothing, nothing, said Brad nervously.

- Yes, said Harvey, we just walk, in the park.

- You look weird boys, but no matter. It's been a long time Harvey, I'm glad to see you again.

- Me too man. Brad told me about your girlfriend... Destiny? Isn't it? I'm really sorry for her, it's terrible. How is she?

- Not really good, she started a cure to feel better, but the doctor is not optimist.

- Will she die? asked Harvey.

- Harv!!! said Brad."

Harv???

- Sorry Tris, said Harvey anxious, I didn't want too, I mean... Sorry, I really have been clumsy.

- I don't know. I don't want to lose her, I love her and I can't imagine my life without her.

- Yes, I understand this feeling, can't live without the person you love the most in the whole world, the one who's everything to you, who's the most important people of your life, I can imagine this.

- It's... poetic Harvey, did you already feel this?

- Yes... with an ex-girlfriend but we broke up and I'm OK now, it's different from you. By the way I'm sorry but I have to leave. Brad, you stay with Tris. Bye boys.

- Harv wait... said Brad.

- Harvey is weird today.

- It's just... Harvey.

- Really???"

Brad finally comes to the hospital with me to see Destiny.

The night, I'm back at James and Kirstie's. James looks calmer and he finally gives me a big hug, really big hug and I feel so good in my best friend's arms, probably the best feeling in my day:

- I'm so sorry Tris, said James calmly.

- Me too... Are you crying James?

- Sorry, I didn't want to but... I hate this and I was worried for you. I was scared that you never come back. And I have been so stupid to talk to you like that, but I can't stand to see you so badly.

- Don't worry James, everything is alright now, I'm here.

- You guys are so cute, said Kirstie. Tris we're glad you're back. We should go outside to eat a pizza.

- I'm not really hungry...

- Come on Tris.

- OK, but quickly please, because I'm tired."

We finally have a good time and I eat a lot cause I really needed it. Even I can't stop thinking of Destiny, thanks to James and Kirstie I forget during a few hours that my life sucks.