I Ship Bullshit. (Larry Stylinson)

"...biggest load of bullshit ive ever heard..."

"...I'm happy why cant you accept that?"

"...the fans have made up some fake relationship between me and Harreh...." fake?

Why couldn't I accept that? Why couldn't I get that word out of my head? Bullshit. Did he really think that? That was bullshit. I don't know whether to feel heart broken or to be pissed as fuck. I choose pissed as fuck.

I grabbed the nearest thing I could find and threw it against the wall. My phone. The next thing was just a pillow. My phone shattered at the contact and the pillow hit the wall with a muffled thud. I groaned and fell onto my bed.

Hes such a cunt! One day hes cuddling with me telling me he loves me and the next I'm bullshit? I mean I know that he didn't mean love love but....still. I turned over face down in my bed and groaned loudly. I heard footsteps running to my room I assumed because of the noise I'd been making. I buried my head into the bed awaiting whoever came into the room.

The door opened after a frantic knock at the door. Of course the voice that came after the door creaking had me confused even more.

"Hazz? Are you ok? I heard a crash...." I was feeling so much right now I didn't really care what he had to say. I just wanted him out so I could sulk in my room by myself. "Is that....your phone?" He said hesitantly while picking it up.

"What happened? You want to talk about it?" He asked hesitantly. I shook my head at him and buried my head more into the pillow. I was hoping that if I went far enough I would disappear. I couldn't tell Lou what was wrong. I couldn't let him know that I was mad and upset about him saying Larry wasn't real because in his mind it wasn't. We weren't. I needed to realize that. I couldn't always get what I want. I couldn't have Lou. Hell, I shouldn't even have feelings for him other than friendly ones.

I felt the bed dip and he was at my side. Like he always was. He put a hand on my back rubbing slowly in a comforting way. I need to stop feeling like this. Feeling sparks everytime he touched me. Wanting more everytime he's near me. I decided I couldn't hide forever and turned on my side to face him.

He turned a bit more to get a better view of me. He moved his hand from my back to my cheek. "BabyCakes....what's wrong love?" he asked in such a loving tone that made me want to cry. I don't know why but it just did.

"I don't know anymore Boo...." I told him in a shaky tone. I do not even know why I was feeling so many emotions. He gave me an understanding look and took off his shoes and layed next to me. He pulled the blanket over us and wrapped his arm around my waist pulling me more towards him. He put his head in my neck.

"Shhhhh......its okay love....I'm here now. You don't have to worry anymore" His words made the tears I was holding back slip through silently. He was so sweet. I couldn't help but feel the feelings that I was feeling towards him. He pulled away from my neck and kissed my cheek where my tears were rolling down. "Its okay I'm here....its okay." he whispered again. He kissed my cheek and looked at my lips breifly. My breath caught in my throat and I couldn't help but wish for him to just kiss me.

He looked back up into my eyes and pulled us back into our previous position. I found myself falling to sleep slowly. Lou started humming in my ear and kissed my neck hesitantly. I shivered at the touch of his lips and had to hold in a moan.

He had his arm underneath my head and the other was wrapped around my waist. I had my arm bent to where it was behind my head and the other around him as well. The hand that was underneath my head and his hand that was underneath it as well were intertwined. This is how we fell asleep. My heart clenched. He was so close and yet so far away. I need help, I cant keep feeling this way but of course I'm not going to do anything stupid like stop talking to him or start being a jerk to him. That's just rediculous.

I honestly don't think I could take anymore of his non shipping of Larry. I mean I get it. I really do. The fans go a tad overboard. But he could at least try to ignore it. At least think of my feelings in this. He cant sit there and look back and not think of any moments where he actually felt romantic feelings towards me. I know hes felt something at least once. At least.

I decided to stop thinking about everything and just try to relax. Relaxing in my BooBear's arms was not that hard. I pulled him closer and breathed in his scent trying to fall asleep to Lou's humming. It worked. We fell asleep in each others arms like we always do.

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Ello My Smutty Carrots!!!

I hope that y'all liked my new new story!! I know I know its aa Larry! I just kept having this idea pop up in my head over and over again. Soooo I decided to post it what's the worst that could happen? Yeah I know I cant think of anything either. Soooo tell me what yyou think and check out my new story Irresistible (Lirry Stayne) and of course my other story You're Mine. Not His. (Narry Storan/Ziall Horlik/Zouis Talik)

Anyways I'm excited that I have more stories for y'all buuuuuuut don't worry YMNH isn't even cloooose to ending so please keep loving me!!! <3

-Beth xxxxxx