the split

chapter 2

As I left the hall with my brother, I was already have serious doubts about what I had done. My mind was whirling over possibilities, and would have kept whirling if someone hadn't tapped my on the shoulder. I looked up. It was a girl with tanned skin and an orange floaty dress; obviously from amity. "are you okay?" She asked, "only you look like you're going to be sick."

"I'm fine." I said, "Thank you" I quickly added. I didn't want to be rude, not on my first day. We introduced ourselves. She was called Lola, and had come here on her own. She had a younger sister called Mia, but she had stayed in Amity. We carried on talking for a while, and she introduced me to a couple of her amity friends. I, in turn introduced her to my brother. It felt nice to have friends and feel a sense of community. It felt nice just being here, living a life I had chosen.

   Suddenly the crowd stopped walking and went silent. I could just about hear a tight, clipped voice over the wind. "Welcome to your new home! Section 3c of the Erudite headquarters!" I looked up; I had been too busy talking I hadn't noticed where we were going. I looked up over the crowd and gasped.

It was a huge high rise building with massive airy windows and an amazing modern feel. On the entrance it read section 3c-initiates. So this whole building was just for initiates? I couldn't believe my eyes! All that money they wasted could have gone to help the factionless. I shrugged off the stray thought. I didn't need to be reminded of my past faction. That was over now. I just wasn't... selfless enough for Abnegation.

The voice spoke again. I strained to see who it was, but all I could see was a sea of jostling heads. "Please go in, initiates. There will be someone there to welcome you and tell you what to do. I apologise but I must leave now".

I followed the crowd into the building. A tall blonde sat behind a desk and told us to get into a queue whilst she put our details into the satabase and put us into our rooms. Me and Caleb had ended up near the back so I took a minute to take in our surroundings.

It had a big reception area with sofas and a water cooler with little plastic cups. I'll be honest, I only knew what it was because it was clearly labelled; I had never seen one before. Stiffs tended not to indulge in anything like that. Tap water is plenty good enough. My mother would say. Some people don't even get that much. I felt tears brimming. I can't believe I left mum and dad on their own. What was I thinking?

"Hey" I looked up. Caleb.

"Hey". I had almost forgotten he was here,  I was so worried about mum and dad.

"You okay?" He asked. I gave him a look that said what do you think? He laughed. "Obviously not then. I'm sure you'll be fine Beatrice. I'm sure we're going to love it here!" I gave a half hearted nod. Yeah. I will love it... I just need to adjust a bit.

I realised then that I couldn't keep hanging on to my old life. I had to start over. Completely. "Um, caleb... I was thinking. I really want to kind of start over you know? And so I think I should get a new nickname, for my new life"

"Oh yeah? How about...hmm...Bea?" I smiled and nodded my approval. "Okay then... Bea"

Hm... Bea... I liked it. But it sounded a bit off in the sterile environment we were now in. It was a bit unprofessional, but never mind. I seemed out of place here. Everything was clearly labelled, often with a number as well. Erudites obviously liked order. I've never been much of a one for order. I sighed. Did I make the right choice coming here? Do I really belong? If Tori wasnt lying, then I suppose I dont belong anywhere. I' m divergent. What does that even mean? Why do I not fit in? My head started to hurt with all the big, unanswerable questions.

I suppose that's the point of my being here.

To answer the unanswerable.