Royal

5- Hidden

       Chaol's POV

        I didn't mean to be a jerk. It just happened. I tried to hide my feelings, and the best way for that, I decided, was to show none.

        I couldn't let myself become too close with her because then I might cross over my boundaries, step over the line. The unforgiving line. And that would be dangerous.

        I almost came too close today, letting myself walk her back to her rooms. Flirting with her! Gods, help me. When she came to the river, it took everything in my power not to run to her and kiss her right then and there. Everything I am, to not run my fingers through her long brown hair and stroke her cheek. Instead, I told her she shouldn't have come and I kept quiet.I even had to distract myself with pain. The brightness of the sun. When she suggested that we both ride the horse, my heart flew out of my chest and shattered across the grass. I knew I could never have her. She was a princess and I was a guard. 

        I think I may of hurt her too, she seemed so happy and it started to drain out of her. Oh well, she couldn't love me and I couldn't love her. No matter how harsh the reality may be, it's the best for both of us. 

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        This had happened before, I remember, when we used to be friends. We would do everything together, we were a team, and after a while, I found myself falling in love with her. But I couldn't tell her how I felt, because it would never work. 

        When I was appointed Captain of the Guard, it was as if I had been saved. I was so busy and so focused on work, I had no time to be with her. And soon, my feelings retreated to where I would never find them or use them again.

        Until this morning. 

        When I ran into her, all of the feelings, so well hidden, came back out and smacked me in the face. 

        I fell in love all over again.

        But now, I had to hide it.