I can't seem to get you off my mind. That scene is flashing in my head. I have been running from this for years. When I see my picture on Tv, I see the moments we spent together. Minute by minute. Day by day. Second by second. I wake up screaming and terrified from my nightmares of you that night. During the day I blackout and I just see the rain pouring down and the blood from our clothes. Your screams fade out from my mind then I hear your drowned screams.
I changed my name so nobody can locate me and I can work now, doing what I love! I can finally be the waitress at my favorite place. Something strange starting happening last week. I kept seeing you face everywhere. I was watching a movie the other day and this girl was dying in her lover's arms. Then I saw your The exact face you made that night when you mumbled "Why" Then I look around. After that you murmured "I love you" I laugh.
You never loved me. Ī loved you. If you loved me, you wouldn't have done the things you did to me. You would have never backstabbed me if you loved me. You BROKE! my heart and shattered it to pieces.
I can't believe my own 'Best Friend' would do that. I still loved you, even if I knew you were cheating on me with my best friend. I still trusted my best friend even if I knew that she knew that we were together.
Just because I said no to you for trying to get in my pants. That doesn't mean to try to go behind my back and have sex with my best friend. It killed her inside to know I would never forgive her. She killed herself so I didn't have to.
I killed you because you deserved it. My mind keeps spinning. The world is a blur. I don't trust anyone. I can't trust anyone. I had a perfect life but all that is gone now. I survived. I'm on my own. I can't go back. I killed you because I couldn't keep going back to you. I knew that I was to run back to you to get my heartbroken again.
Why do I keep thinking about you? You're gone. It's done and over with....
