Love Me Up |Cogan|

3. Fess It Up

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Cece's POV

I sighed loudly, angry with myself. This was never going to work out with Logan. The guy hates my guys and I hate putting on this mask of feelings to him. That's not what I really feel!
A mixture of anger, bitterness and sadness boiled in my chest. What is this? What is this he's making me feel?

Could it be...
L...
"No it couldn't." I laugh to myself. That's crazy!

Is it? Ugh! I walk over to my door and turn the knob. Maybe I can talk to Rocky about this, but indirectly. I won't say it's actually Logan since they have a thing. "Yeah, you can do this Cece." I talk to myself as I walk across my apartment and knock on her door.

No answer.

Is she not home? "Rocky?" I call out quieter than I meant to. I steadily open the door and step inside. "You wanna go eat at -" I stop dead in my tracks. It was stupid of me coming here. What did I expect to see? Rocky and Logan were kissing on the couch, they sprawl across the room. Rocky wipes her mouth and her eyes widen. "Um - Cece!" I swallow down a yell. I feel my body become colder.

I walk out in silence, slamming the door hard and shaking the building harder than an earthquake. It even scared me. I ran into my apartment and shut the door behind me, sliding down the wall. A hot feeling grew in my throat, and my face began to blush. Was I crying?

I hear the door knock. I wasn't sure if I wanted to face Rocky for my embarrassing reaction. If I actually didn't care about Logan I would've simply walked out, but instead I burst out of the room in upcoming tears. How am I supposed to explain that? I needed a little bit of time to come up with a horrible lie. "It was the dust that got to my eyes!" I quietly whispered. That's such a bad lie not even Flynn would believe it. I'm such a dork. "Y-yeah?" I wiped the remaining tears away from my face and took a deep breath as I opened the door.

He stood there, his eyebrows furrowed up in a concerned look. I don't know why I thought it would be Rocky. Maybe it was because hates seeing me this way, which is not too often. But instead Logan stood there with a pale face. "What do you want?" I said with a shaky voice as I turned away from the door. He's the last person I wanted to see right now, but I had to act like nothing just happened.

"What was that about?" He asked.

"What was what about?" I lied. We both knew what happened. I'm not sure if I can lie myself out of this one this time.

"You ran out of the room like you had just seen a ghost." He stepped inside after me.

I swung around with a fake smile. "You were just there. It was horrendous." I tried to make a lighter situation.

"I was there?" He raised his eyebrows. He was still serious, and my tactic seemed like it hadn't worked. I kept quiet though. "Well, if I wasn't there, would you have reacted differently?"

Of course, stupid!

"Stop being ridiculous." I muttered. "Why would I be bothered that you were with Rocky? I couldn't care less what you do anymore." I scoffed and turned to walk away, but I felt his grip on my wrist. He swung me around, causing me to bump into his chest.
"Ow, hey! You -" The look in his eyes sent a shock in my body. Not a bad one. "I ..." Stuttering like a fool, I didn't know what to say. I realized how close I was to him. Our bodies were literally together, his hand on my wrist. A light blush began to rise onto my cheeks as my eyes drifted down to his lips. I could feel is warmth. It felt like I was there for a millennium, like there was nothing actually better than this.

What is that smell? It's so nice.

It's my favorite smell.

Our lips became closer and closer as I closed my eyes. What's happening?

The door slammed open and I fell frontwards from the fright, knocking Logan over with me. My face buried in his chest from the hard thud. "Ow..." I heard him say underneath me. I sprawled across the floor away from him, feeling stupid. I turned to see Flynn with his skateboard in his hand. He looked at us and shaked his head. "You two will never stop fighting will you. Shame shame. What am I going to do about you kids?" I let out a long sigh. Thank god it was him and not Rocky. This could've taken a turn for the worst. I glanced at Logan and caught him looking at me. He quickly looked at Flynn.

I huffed, "I hate you." Reassuring him, I stomped out of the apartment. There was only one place I would go when I had situation ; the studio. It was my only escape.

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♫"My sweet tooth, satisfaction
I'm freaking out out o-o-o-out~"♫

I seriously am, what just happened back there? I whip my hair and wave my hands, practicing my choreography. Shaking my hips, I look at myself in the mirror.

♫"It's like every little piece of me falls

right in front of you~"♫

Ain't that the truth?

♫"Baby when you're next to me, I...I become a fool

Kissing you is bittersweet I'm givin' into you~"♫

Preparing myself for a finale, I do a hairflip and dance across the room, letting myself go.

♫"Oh, it's not love, its just a sugar rush!"♫

My body bends back and I let my hands go up in the air, releasing all the stress and emotions. I was lost in the music.
Ending the song, I twirl and smack my body against the wall, dramatizing the echo of the song.

"Ow." I rubbed my shoulder. I smacked myself a little too hard on the wall. But I owed to myself for almost kissing him. I shivered.

I walked over to a counter and picked up some papers. I'm supposed to make some choreography pieces for next week's episode. I read the two song choices.

Jealous - Nick Jonas
Love Me Harder - Ariana Grande

It's like life is seriously trying to send me a message. Geez, thanks! Like I didn't know I was already jealous, wanting him to love me slightly more.

"We need to talk Cece."

I turned around at the sound of a voice. Rocky stood there with her arms crossed.