SANITY'S KEEPER

Page 1 : Sanity

When looking into a mirror you see your reflection you see every mark every line every curve but when looking into a mirror you never see the unexplained emotions inside. When you're a seed you need to be watered to grow, you need sunlight to grow, you need fresh air and a good environment. I look at life as a seed from the beginning where we have already sprouted. Such as being born we either grow into a good or bad environment and it's bad enough we can't choose what that's going to be. We have to look at life through another's eye. We make choices with the judgement of that eye we fall down with that eye cry with that eye even leave but sometimes we leave the eye behind and here's why.  Having someone constantly being there picking on the fly away of our life makes us want to be distant. Not having someone to talk to and they can just listen without having to judge, comment on the way we feel like it's wrong makes us want to be distant. Some of us are given 4 sets of eyes in life and some 2 and others none. And people will set and engrave the reminder in your head not to take them for granted and to appreciate them because when they're gone you can't do anything about it. But I always question when they are here walking ,living, breathing, eating, talking, the roles of not taking something for granted are switched. To explain, the eyes that choose what's best for us holds onto a grudges over something that will change and talk about how we don't know ourselves and we disappointed them but when left crying, hurt, or sad we still go out of our way to do what's best for THEIR sanity to do what's best for them, to make them proud. But they yet to come to realize that OUR sanity is necessary as much as it is for them,  they've yet come to realize that our sanity is the prime factor to our health. I say this because the meaning of sanity is ¨the ability to think and behave in a normal and rational manner; sound mental health¨. Us as teenagers living through this time and era have to question our sanity at every moment we doubt our sanity at times give up on our sanity. But when we question our sanity we question our happiness but you must know it's never all on you. Questioning your sanity it may be because of the environment you thought was safe really wasn't, it could be that because you knew you were an impact on someone's life they could change but they ended up draining you out. It could be your household. It's all Within the realm of what environment / predicament you are surrounded in. Happiness is important cause at the end of the day those eyes will love you but won't like if you do or you dont and trust me I know but you have to do what's best for you life is getting really short and time is passing by so while you have time use it to do what's BEST for you. Do what makes you happy cause if you're not happy for yourself NOBODY is going to be happy for you. People and family won't Like the fact that you put yourself first but don't let that change your decision and choice and do what's best for you.  TO BE CONTINUED ....    
"Don't wait around for other people to be happy for you. Any happiness you get you've got to make yourself". - Alice Walker