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Pt 4. The Incoherent ramblings of a teenager

The following night I was let go from the Mafias grasp, however I was put under surveillance under Mori's orders. I later returned to the same pier too.

Dad...mom...What should I do?

Maybe they'd consent to let me join?

I pulled out my phone again, only to see the recent contacts.
'Mom'
'Mori'

I closed my phone, and sighed in frustration. Should I apologize to mom and go back home? Or should I join the mafia and be free from it. Joining the mafia would be better than being homeless I suppose.

I leaned against the piers railings, the cold ocean breeze smelt of salt.

I sighed, Mori was practically giving me a handout. I gripped at the cold railing thinking. Did he know something I don't? Or was this pity?
I thought for a while, it was a hard decision...joining the mafia would mean that I would be sworn in to a secret organization. Certainly a hard decision. But at the same time, I would be able to have my own job and sustain myself freely without my mother breathing down my neck.

But let's be real here! That's simply a comfort dream, I would have to run around with guns and partake in violence!! I mean I wouldn't call myself a pacifist or anything, its just that I don't want to kill anyone is all.

Hmm...a pacifist, eh? I wonder if I could be a bodyguard or maybe an informant.. My eyes narrowed at the multiple thoughts lurking in my head. I slumped over the railing, this was making my stomach hurt...

"Waaa~~!! WHAT THE HELL DO I DO?!" I screamed into the sky.

"Join if your unsure." I froze, a male voice responded to my woes." Was I talking to myself this whole time and someone heard me? Or was this a voice in my head.. God?! I looked around to make sure, no one. It was just the guard , me, and the peir.

'Jojn if your unsure.' Those words echoed into my head. Join? I pulled out my phone, once again I met face to face with my contacts. I can't call my mom, no not on this. Not after everything she did! What help she was...
I sighed, I gave in to my only option I had left. Mori.