Secret Wardrobe of the Duchess

Chapter 69

He wished he could walk by her side. Each time she looked at something, he wanted to ask what she was looking at and look at it himself. What kind of sensation the day’s weather brought to her, whether the air was fresh, whether her shoes were right for walking, he had so many things to ask her and say to her.
However, all those were not allowed to him.

It was good that Rubica wasn’t asking him to walk with her. Then, he would have to turn her down flatly, and she would think he didn’t want to walk with her. He didn’t want her to think like that.

But at the same time, he was sad that she wasn’t asking for that even though she worried about his health.

‘What on earth is wrong with me?’

When he looked at her, he was happy, sad, disappointed, and glad at the same time. He was getting opposing feelings all the time. He really didn’t know whether it was her or himself.

“You should go now.”

“May I leave after seeing you fall asleep?”

His voice sound pitiable even to himself. So far, his pride had been the only thing that supported him. He did not give up on his life, despite all the miseries he was suffering, because of that. However, he abandoned his pride so easily in front of Rubica.

Moreover, the woman who was making him discard his pride in an instant shook her head at that. He wanted to grab her shoulder and yell if she thought he did that to just any woman. No, actually… he wanted to plead to let him stroke her hair.

‘I’m crazy, I’m crazy.’

He was either sick or enchanted. Maybe that piece of note that had replaced his ring had been a warning.

“Edgar”

However, when he heard her voice, all those tormenting thoughts melted away. Their eyes met. She hesitated but then closed her eyes.

How could he resist that?
She had closed her eyes. That was all. However, it was a great temptation to Edgar. She was much more seducing with her eyes closed than any other woman naked.

He bent down and kissed her forehead carefully like a priest carrying a holy object.

‘I don’t want to end this.’

He wished he could stay that way forever and ever. He inhaled hard to enjoy her scent. There was lavender incense for sleeping burning right next to the bed, but it wasn’t a problem for him. No matter how strong the scent that filled the room was, he could always detect her unique scent.

Was it because he had been kissing her for too long? Rubica moved. Edgar had no choice but to remove his lips. But this time, he didn’t straighten his back. Instead, he slowly moved his face down. Their lips were about to meet, and her eyes shook like a boat in a storm.

“Goodnight kisses should be done on the lips.”

A sweet voice came out of his lips. He had never imagined he would be the one whispering like that as the others were always the ones trying to seduce him. His lips were wanted by so many other women.

“No.”

Rubica looked away. With her, he was always the one who was tempted and got refused.

‘You are so cruel. Why are you not even a little kind to me?’

He had heard that countless times when he said no to temptations. But today, he said that to Rubica. In his heart, so that she couldn’t hear it.

His heart was in chaos. He could now understand so well the women he had found bothering and impossible to understand before. His reason shouted he had to understand her, and she didn’t love him, but his heart blamed her. Everybody wanted him. So why was she the only exception?