Unwanted mate.

1. Maybe

I'm Kaya Rogers, my father is the best warrior of blue stone pack, that makes me his successor right? Well no. It doesn't. My father and mother never had the ideal lovable mates relationship, my father was a workaholic and didn't give as much attention to her as she needed. She resolved to alcohol and when that didn't help she started sleeping with other males, so he suffers. When my father had felt it at first he was ignorant but at the end his wolf lost control and he pushed mom with so much force that she hit her head badly and since her wolf had already left she couldn't heal .. and well she died.

Not that I feel bad .. she was never a Mom to me always drenched in alcohol or some other males scent. And before that she was busy in her own busy world. But what really happened after her death made me what I'm today.

My father before all this occurred that is 5 years ago when I was 13 used to train me alone and I felt happy because I could spend time with him. None of the pack members knew about that, they thought my absence from pack training as my weakness. Though he was very hard on me, I always wanted to make him proud. But after mom's death he became ruthless, no he never laid hands on me but he used to just show no emotions and just make me train day and night. Until one day he stopped. His wolf died. He stayed at one place never moving and soon just before my 18th birthday that is in a week. He died and left me alone. Today is his funeral. At least he was their for me  .. but my mother was selfish never cared about anyone and maybe that's why he lost control. But the guilt never let him breathe. 

I don't know! But I feel bad today. I do. Cause the only person that knew the real me is dead.
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This is my life. And my life is crazy.
Everyone in school thinks of me as someone who's too weak. No one know I'm the pack's best warriors daughter, and I like it that way. They don't know the real me. I'm bullied, no one likes me here in this pack. I don't either.

As a child I had only one friend Dante. He was my father's friend's Son. He was to be the future alpha of the Red moon pack, the strongest pack in the US. He was my first kiss, at just the age of 10. He was 13. He told me that day that even if we are not mates he will love me forever, I don't know if he remembers but I do, and I feel happy that he was my first kiss. That was 8 years ago .. and two days from now I will be shifting for the first time and can find my mate, the latter I'm not interested about.

I don't want anyone to hold that much power over me, and so I have thought I won't stay here. I will move from this sh!thole of a pack. But mostly I fear rejection.

I wish Dante would have been my mate but i heard he found his mate and Luna, two years back. That was the last time I tried to know about his life. I'm happy for him I'm, but it stings just a little.

To be honest I don't believe in mates, you would say i wouldn't have said the same if Dante was mine. NO it's not because of him, it's because of the toxic life mates live. My parents are a great example of mate bond being nothing but toxic.  

I want someone to love me with or without the sparks, there should be love in their eyes and not lust. I guess I'm expecting too much from my shitty life. but with no one ever loving me I guess I want some of that.

I have all my stuff packed, my car keys are with me. Taking a last look at the house not home. I put the bags in the back seat, and start my car. I don't need to say bye to anyone, well except Ally she is the only one who's ever been nice to me, she two years older than me and is the acks Omega, she is treated even worse than I am, maybe that's one of the reasons we are friends. I try to save her, being weak doesn't mean you should give up. I'm not weak yet I try to showcase myself as weak so that I can be with her and well protect her.

I asked her to come with but i guess she doesn't want to. I guess she has accepted her faith.

Crossing the pack borders "I Kaya Rogers, leave the blue stone pack" I don't want to be weak anymore. I will be STRONG.

Driving for what felt like 1 whole day, I see that I'm finally in the city, parking near a coffee shop I leave my white BMW there for people to stare. It was my fathers gift, he gave it to me for my bday just a month back. I guess he knew it will be the last.

I order a Hot Chocolate, I don't like coffee Sitting on the corner table I think of what I'm gonna do. Now that I'm a Rogue. This is human territory so its okay. I ask the waitress about nearby Hotels, and she told me about one that's a 5 minutes drive. The Hot chocolate was delicious, finishing that off, I leave a 5$ bill.

5 minutes through the drive I'm looking at a tall building called Hotel Elison. Taking my carry on and suitcase from the back, I pass my keys to valet and another one takes care of my bags. 

Moving inside on my way to the reception, i let my eyes observe the gorgeous interiors. 

"I want a room for a week or two" I say to the blonde caked up woman sitting on the front desk. She looks at me up and down oh god not again with the judgy face. 

"That would be 500$ for a week and 1000$ for two, can you afford that?" she ask with a extra fake smile. Now that's what people don't understand I don't spend money on designer stuff but I have enough money and after fathers death all his life insurance money with all that was in his account was also transferred to my account, in shot I can easily spend my life with the amount  I have. 

"Yes, thank you for your not so needed concern" I growl out, passing her my card. " one week will be alright" 

Taking my room card from her "17th floor room no. 1703" she says in a bored tone. b!tc# 

I'm tired, let's sleep. tomorrow I need to find a place for me to shift.