"I was tried to rape", My heart squeezed
sidhum pov
"I was tried to rape",I couldn't believe my ears .These words were echoing.I felt guilty she was going through from so much pain and what I have done .....? She don't deserve me.I can't stop looking at her more I look into her eyes more I feel responsible. Her angelic eyes were asking me questions that why I doubted her.....
She is such a steel lady who had holded so many painful emotions in her heart. How am I going to ask for her forgiveness....?
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There was a guilt full silence , we both were looking to each other.
"sidhum I don't know what I am to you and what you are thinking about me but please never ever say that I don't respect you sister.
he hugged me tightly so tightly that I couldn't even breathe. Its not easy to forget all those things he had just said to me.I closed my eyes and let my eyes to shed tears which it has kept hidden for so long.His warm hugs were always my weakness but I wanted to assure him that I am not at all weak.
"sidhum", I spoke in a low voice breaking the hug
His eyes were red in teary. I could see the guilt in them.
I brushed his tears
"sidhum why are you crying?"
"I am sorry sanya.....I am sorry for all the pain I have given to you.I am sorry for all those filthy words.I could never ask for your forgiveness because what I have said to you was so inappropriate I know its not easy for you but please accept me sanya. I love you so much.I know I don't deserve you but just give me one chance .I am incomplete without you .
You bring meaning to my life . I can't loose you sanya . I love you so much", his eyes were still teary
"sidhum You dont have to do this all what you are saying to me is because of your guilt .You know na what I have just told to you ...somebody tried to rape me. Nobody would ever love a rape victim. sidhum " My voice chocked
"you would always feel ashamed being with me even I am ashamed of myself how could I expect anything from you?. you don't have to be sympathetic about me sidhum", My heart ached
"sanya you don't be ashamed of yourself the one who should feel shame is that basterd" I could clearly see the anger in his eyes.
"and do you really think I am saying this in sympathy? I really love you sanya I could never be ashamed to be with you. You are not a victim sanya. no girl who are raped are victim stop thinking like that. You are my strong girl and I am forever yours", His eyes were full of love.
"will you marry me?", I could not belive.I never thought that somebody would ever love me after discovering my past.
I hugged him tightly. He wrapped his arms around me. The feeling was blissful
we stayed in the same positions for minutes.
"sidhum",I breaked hug
"I love you so much", he placed a sweet kiss on my forehead. I closed my eyes. he kissed both of my eyes.
"I won't promise you that I would never let those tears to come out because there are no flowers without rain but I'll promise you that these eyes will witness more love than tears",I smiled.
then he kissed my cheeks
"I promise you that these cheeks will be blushed with my love for you"
"Then he placed a small soft tendering kiss on my lips"
"You are my life sanya", I smiled and placed a small kiss near his heart.
"sidhum do you know why I always defended tiya?", I asked
he looked me baffled
" because if she wouldn't be there on time than he would have.....", all those horrible moments came in from of my eyes . I shivered in fear.
"shhshhhh!! you don't have to fear about anything. I am there with you always I won't let anybody to touch you ever again", he said pulling me in his embrace.
"Tell me the name of that bastard sanya , I will kill me", he was fuming in anger
"I dont know sidhum he was wearing a mask...I never told anyone about this not even my parents.I can't see them broken and helpless since after that I use to get nightmares of that night.Tiya helped me a lot. she made me strong ...I was all broken and traumatised she helped me when I was helpless. I don't know sidhum but I can't doubt her thats the reason I wanted to find her because I feel something is wrong... something his hidden which we are not able to see"
"I don't know sanya wether tiya is right or wrong ...I just know that she was the one who was responsible for my sister's death"
"Tell me what all she had said about your sister while reporting?"
"I dont know sana ...She wrote a suicide letter in which she mentioned tiya's name", he replied
"That means you had never seen that news?", I asked
"No sanya ..I was not in this city ...she never told me that she was raped I came to mumbai when I heard her suicide news ...She had kept this rape incident hidden", I could feel the pain in his voice
"and who told you about her suicide?"
"Av!", he replied
