FROM ME TO US.....

Messy thoughts...

Life is nothing but a series of joke played on us and I know that ,that's why I laugh everytime that happens ,happy or not till I reach the end where nothing exist but the eternal peace.....

People may think I am crazy but who care's .Not me. What I care the most in this world is just me and myself because at the end it just all about me. Yeah I love myself not in an obsessive way though. I learnt it hard way that wahtever you do for others, at the time of disaster they'll only think to save themselves first.

Let me introduce myself ,I'm Dr. Beam Baraame working as a surgeon in Life city hospital in Bangkok. An orphan but with a nice salary , with a lot of money left by my parents, a big house ,servants and whatever a posh life will be like.For an orphan I do have an extravagent life but that doesnt change the fact that I am still an orphan .

People say I am cold ,a narcissist may be and do not express my felling to the others .Even my best friends say that and I just have two people in my life to call as friends, Phana and Kit .Both are docters like me in the same hospital.

May be they are right I am a bit cold .But why do I need to show others my feeling,cant they just stop prying on my life.People need to understand their life is theirs and mine is mine.Sigh, yep that cold I am. Sometimes towards my friends too but they know me too well to hate me.

" Hey Beam"

And that's 'The Great Phana' may be again trying to take me along to some bar with Kit and their lovers. but who wants to be a third wheel among them, do they want me to have diabetes seeing their 'oh so sweet' romance, gag.

I just finished a surgery and that's my reason to escape. But...

" Hey buddy, lets hang out"

"No"

"...why?"

" I just..."

before I can say something Phana completed my sentence.

" finished the surgery and not in a mood?" Annoying

"....."

"Who are you kidding, do you think I don't know you enough? You and not in a mood for booze and girls is something I wont even believe in my dreams"

Well if it was before , he would've been right but now after that particular 'someone' I really don't want to enter any bar or club for sometime and encounter him again .Who knows with whom he will be with this time as a escort or something and meeting again will be awkward .

"Or is it something else?" Phana asked.

"What something ? Nothing" I huffed with arm crossed.

"What with the mood, its been days I've being observing you with some mood swings.... by chance are you pregnant... ohmy.. who's the father?"

SLAP! I slapped his head

"ouch, stop being violent "

"..."I glared at him

"Sorry sorry, my bad, forgive me "

I would like to curse him.

"Hey, cheer up , Kit will finish his shift in an hour or two .Its been a while we had a chance to chill out ,so lets hang out'okay?"

He is right but...

sighs

"Okay"

That's right just because of some stupid man why should I ruin my fun life. I'll get drunk and have some fun with girls.Who cares about some stupid idiot jerk asshole and... hot. handsome... no no no no no what am I thinking ,he.. he.. is a b*stard .

I don't care and Its not like I felt something when he...godddd..

Yeah right...I feel nothing. Nothing at all.

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A/N: Yeah... whatever makes you sleep at night baby.😉