**skipping sunday(a.k.a lazy day)**
ugh monday morning
i got up and brushed my teeth and put on bb cream and powder with mascara and a little bit of blush
"baby your so classic"i sang as i got ready
todays outfit consists of :::: leggings , a white t-shirt , a maroon cardigan ,a black infinty scarf , with maroon vans
my hair was a simple donut bun
i took my backpack and legit ran out of the house ,
ahh fresh air
finally walking on school grounds
"i thought i told you to stay away from shawn"the blonde chic walked up to me
"im sorry i didnt get your name"i smiled making her more pissed off
"Rachel"she smirked at me
"well ,rachel, "i said her name sarcastically" im sorry i forgot to tell you last time you hit me, shawn doesnt even know you exist ,just go with ryan isn't that what you usually do?"
everybody knows her and ryan hooked up but they denied it everyone told me rumors about "ryan and the blonde"but i never pay attention to rumors
another attempt to hit me
but unexpectedly shawn caught her hand before it hit me
"bad girl"shawn said cockily before hugging me
"always"she smiled and walked away
shawn turned to me
"were you going to let her hit you?"he asked raising an eyebrow
"why not?"i shrugged
"your face is beautiful dont let somebody ruin it "he stroked my cheek
i kissed his cheek "thank you love"
"no problem"he smiled
rinngggg
"time for hell"i giggled
"i only live throught it because i know that i get to see you after"he smiled
"awww same"i smiled and hugged him
"now get to class"he laughed
"you get to class"i giggled
°°°°°skipping the boring school day°°°°
shawn walked me home because i told him that i was starting to get sick (wich i was) and he dropped me off
i went into the bathroom and did what i do to myself when im alone
i self harm since i was thirteen because of the life i used to live then now its worse
>>my parents dont care about me
>>im not enough , i dont deserve shawn
>>im a failed attempt at life
>>rachek
>> ryan
>>im a mess and scared to fall harder for shawn
thats why i wear long sleeves
mostly all people hid them by bracelets i hide them with long sleeves and bracelets sometimes
i took my razor out and did two slashes for every reason listed
