I always want to control things.
And in the end that's what controls me.
I try to control this.
But I can't.
Sometimes I am scared, that some day I won't control things.
That I can't control me.
That I can't control this thing, that beats in my chest.
Cause when you lose control, you lose everything.
Okay, if you lose control, you can trust in things.
But I don't want to control my friends or other things I can trust.
I'm scared to losing control over my self.
Because I can't trust myself.
