My High School Romance

Part 5

He had texted her a sad face. She was getting heart pains already. Whenever he was sad, it made her just as sad. She asked him what was wrong. His reply was 'well... I'm talking to her again'. She just started crying. She could barely even look at her phone anymore... Her heart was literally aching. She said 'why... Doesn’t she know you're dating me?' He said 'yes...' She said 'well, she already broke your heart, she doesn't even really love you...' He forwarded her a really long message his ex had texted him. It was telling all of her feelings for him and how much she 'loved him'. She got even more heart pains and tears in her eyes reading those messages. He said 'you're telling me that she doesn't care about me? Look at what all she said. How could i not care for her...' She got so fed up... And her heart had gotten broken once again and her fingers just effortlessly texted out the two words she thought she would never have to say again, 'we're done.' No more than two seconds after she texted those words, she really regretted it. She thought that this would seriously be it. Forever. No doubt about it. After all they had been through. The promises he gave her... How he wanted to be together forever... Was that all lies... How? How could he say something like that and then just turn around and love someone else? Her heart hurt so bad. She felt so stupid for breaking up with the one guy she loved. She had really looked forward to their future. School had not even started yet. Knowing that she wouldn't be able to be with him in the mornings anymore and those kinds of things just killed her heart. She... She... She still doesn't have him... And it... It kills her... School had eventually started up again. They are now in the month of September. It had started again in August. She had hoped to have a class with him. Just like their first break up, even though they were not dating, she still wanted to see him every day. She walked in her 2nd period, and there he was. It was a little awkward. She said hello... And now every day that's all they do. They text sometimes, they can somewhat talk as friends. It is so hard for her not to just spill out her feelings for him... That's why she wrote this story. These memories... These feelings... She holds in everyday behind a fake smile. She is constantly thinking about him. Anytime she zones out, the thought is about him. Every time she sees him at school, she wants to just cry and give him a big hug. When she wants to say hi... She gives him a smile and talks to him. When they are talking, she looks him in the eyes and cherishes the moments, because she knows that they can't talk much anymore. She listens to many songs. Many, MANY songs, and they all remind her of him. All she wants, all she prays for, she made her birthday wish on, her 11:11 wishes, are all to get him back, once again, never screw up again, fix all the mistakes, and marry him. Grow old with him. It's all she wants... And it's all she needs. He doesn't know, but anytime she is at band rehearsals... The music relaxes her, and makes her think. Anytime she thinks, she is thinking about him. Everyone asks her 'why are you crying?' She tells them why... All of these feelings she keeps locked up inside her... Away from him... And they always tell her 'you will get him back. Don't worry. You guys are truly in love. He WILL come back for you. You are a sweet, loving girl. You have experienced something that's hard to find; true love.' This makes her smile and wonder. Could he possibly ever feel for her again? Love her again? Maybe if she calls and tells him her feelings... Or shows him all of this. She wrote this story about their relationship just to cry... And get it all off of her chest. She put all of her thought, memories and feelings into it... And hopefully if she sends it... He will read it all and understand her pain... And he will hopefully realize how much she loves him. Hopefully he will read the whole thing and not just reply with an 'ah...' Or something careless. Hopefully, she will get what she has been praying for... Hoping and dreaming for for a long time... Getting her one and only guy she loves back into her heart... He feels that his ex loves him more than she does... No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. She wouldn't spend days and nights writing stories like this one. There is actually more than this one. She just loves this one the most... Cause it tells the most detail on her feelings and the warm... Loving memories. She wishes he could just understand... How much she loves him... How much she cares for him... How much... She cries... How much... She cries herself to sleep every night. All of the quotes she sees and saves on her phone that remind her of him. All of the lyrics that make her cry... 'Forever and always' - Parachute (the most recent song she has had on repeat making herself cry... thinking about him) ^^I want you forever, forever and always Through the good and the bad and the ugly We'll grow old together, and always remember Whether happy or sad or whatever We'll still love each other, forever and always Forever and always, forever and always. The quotes that makes her realize that he is the one... And if you truly love someone, all of the problems you guys have should work out - 'The worst feeling is when someone makes you feel special, then suddenly leaves you hanging, and you have to act like you don't care at all...' 'Don't beg for anyone to stay in your life. If they want to be a part of your life, they'll stay.' 'True love is when another persons happiness is equally as important as your own.' 'Being in love with someone who doesn't love you back is so painful...' 'Sometimes all a girl wants is for you to fight for her. Make her believe that you want the relationship more than she does.' 'One of the hardest decisions you will have to make in life is choosing whether to move on or try harder.' 'When i'm alone, i think. When i think, i remember. When i remember, i feel pain. When i feel pain, i cry. When i cry, i can't stop. Please don't leave me alone.' 'You can't just be friends with someone you're madly in love with.' 'It all comes down to that last person you think of at night. That's where your heart is...' There are way beyond to many song lyrics she hears that remind her of him... But here are some titles: - Two is better than one - Little moments - The lonely - If it means a lot to you - Someday soon - All about us - The Reason - If only - More than a memory - To be with you - Wanted - Love makes me - Cry with you - All you ever - In a song - I won't give up - My life would suck without you - You and me - Do i - You and i - Close your eyes - Home -- So many more -- The moral of this story is, she is in love. She has found the guy she wants to spend the rest of her life with... She found the guy she is truly in love with. She wonders if he feels the same way - If he will ever take her back. She knows she was stupid. She knows she screwed up. She does want him happy... And if him being happy is being with his ex, that's okay... She guesses. She just really hopes that IF she sends him this story... He will reply with a loving message... Saying that it meant a lot to him. She hopes he will take his time reading the whole thing... And she hopes that he will take her back. Because she will want him forever, forever and always... through the good and the bad and the ugly. She wants to grow old together, and always remember, whether happy or sad or whatever, they'll still love each other, forever and always...