12:51 ; kei tsukkishima

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Dear Kei,

                         Hi? Merry Christmas!!! I really don't know what or how to start, but I still have to do it anyways. I love crafting, I love doing gifts for everyone, it was easy for me to decorate or customize stuff. But I have a hard time with this. I thought of the best gift I could give for you, but this is the only thing I can think of. Do you see that picture frame? Haha, it was our first date when they decided to tail on us, but with Shoyo and Kageyama being loud we busted them. Then we took this picture. It was actually a fun day. And yeah, that scarf is handmade, I matched it with the moon's color. I didn't have this finished on the reunion, so I think the perfect opportunity to give you this was when you invited me to a mall hangout with the others. Hope you like it.

I'll get straight to the point, I'm sorry.

                       I'm sorry for not being able to keep up with you. Sorry for being too weak, for letting go of you when things got blurry. When we broke up, I know you noticed it anyways. I've been avoiding you. Probably because I haven't moved on? We never really had a proper closure, I just left. When we met last time in my unit, I was shocked, really. I never expected to meet you there, I never expected you'll come there. And I really don't know what's happening between us, are we on good terms? Are we ok? Are we good? I never really know, but I went along with it. You also went along acting we're in good terms, and so we tried to bury that past without any proper closure. I thought that it would be alright, never speaking of the past. And then acting like casual friends, but who am I kidding?

I still love you.

I still do, and I will probably never stop loving you. When I met you again, I thought maybe we could have a chance. But that's just wishful thinking, who knows what happened these past two years? Maybe you have forgotten about me, maybe you didn't. I still have a lot of things to say, but let me say thank you first. Thank you for those three years of fun, pain, and unforgettable memories. I won't trade those things for anything else. I wish I could turn back time and relive the past. Or maybe turn back time when we were happy together. I wished I didn't let go, but it's for the best, isn't it? We both have different careers now.

Bye, I guess?

I'm moving back to (home country) permanently, I'll be taking care of my parents as they settled in there. I'll be working in Tokyo for a few months for experience, and then I'll be transferred to that country. Maybe I'll come back a few years later, but I really don't know. Don't try to talk to me after reading this, I probably won't be able to handle it. Yeah, I'll be avoiding you again. Sorry, I'm not ready to face you just yet, but maybe someday in the future.

I hope you'll be good at life. I'll stream your plays online if you have any. See you not so soon. Merry Christmas!!

Love,
(y/n)

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