Do you ever find yourself trying really hard to cry at a sad movie? Not because youre sad, but because you just want to try and feel something? Or trying really hard to laugh at someones joke because in your mind you know it's funny but your body is just too tired and empty to even have a sense of humour? Or if someone tries to express emotion towards you, you try to give it back but you just can't. It doesn't feel right. Theres an empty feeling in your stomach and you don't know what it is. You dream of running away and starting a new life but at the same time your so afraid because you don't know if your capable of it. It's like you've lost your ability to feel, yet your hopelessly desperate to get it back.
