Find a way back into love

Chapter 01

"Let's break up." Napatigil ako sa pagsubo ko nung narinig ko ang sinabi niya. I faced her with confusion visible in my face.

"A-no? Are you kidding? Did I hear you right?" I asked her and tried to hold her hand pero iniwas niya na parang meron akong sakit na nakakahwa. Tangina?

"No. Ayoko na. It's just that, this' not working anymore." She said firmly. Yung mukhang desidido na.

"Anong it's not working? Wala naman tayong misunderstanding. Ano ba? May nagawa ba ako na hinid ko alam kaya ka nagagalit, if that's the case the I'm sorry. Hindi naman natin kailangan maghiwalay, babe." I tried to console her, kasi ano bang nangyari? Hindi naman kami nag away.

Inaya niya pa nga ako magdate nagyon diba? So, ano 'to? Good bye date? That's bullshit. Wala naming ganon!

"It's not you, it's me. Joshce, sorry but I can't stand this relationship anymore." She said and walk away. She left me broke and crying.

That's the last words I heard from her, I tried to talk to her pero iniiwasan niya ako, she even blocked me on all her social media accounts, even her sisters, hidi nagrereply.

It's been weeks, I don't know what to do anymore, ayokong mawala yung 2 taon na pinagsamahan naming dahil lang sa hindi ko alam ang dahilan. Hindi naman ganun kadali ilet-go 'yon.

Today, I followed her, wala na akong class kaya pwedeng ko siyang sundan to corner her. Desperado na kung desperado, gusto ko lang talaga na kausapin niya ko. I just needed an explanation. I'm willing to compromise, to adjust, wag lang siyang mawala.

She stopped sa harap ng isang mall, lahat ng nadadaanan siya, napapaatingin sakanya, that's how beautiful she is. Napansin ko na nababastos na siya, I was about to go to her, but I stop when I saw a man approaching her.

He gretted her and she kissed him.

Fucking cheater.

"Niloko ka? Boo. Sabi sa'yo pre, wag si Iza." Denz, one of my friends. Ayoko naman sana sabihin na naghiwalay kami ng girlfriend ko; ex-girlfriend, but can't hide it. Sobrang nakakagago kasi.

All this time I thought, nagbago na siya but I was wrong. I disregarded everything that my friends' rumored about her then 'to igaganti niya sakin? Pure bullshit man.

"Quin, kalimutan mo na 'yon. She's not worthy tho." Eli, my cousin. They never like the thought na nasasaktan ako but there's part of this na masaya sila 'cause they never like her. They knew her but despite of that they accepted her kasi alam nila na mahal ko yung tao.

They respect my decision and respect her too pero siguro may mga babae na walang respeto.

Nandito kami sa 'tambayan'. We are all living in the same subdivision, 'tong tambayan isang park na abandoned. Nilagyan lang namin ng sapin sa lapag, and we'll just sit here then talk about how our day went.

"Akala ko kasi nagbago na siya," is all I can say. Totoo naman, eh. We even made our promises that we'll never cheat nor lie, pero ako lang ata yung sincere.

Tch, promises. Bulok.

"Maraming namamatay sa maling akala, malay mo susunod ka na." Si Ace, tarantado rin talagang tunay. Sinabi niya 'yon na parang isang matalinong scientist na nakahawak pa sa baba habang nakatingin sa taas.

Binatukan siya ni Denz at natawa lang si gago.

"Baka mauna ka pa nga jan. Isang bulate nalang 'di pumipirma sayo." Louis, my younger brother pero parang magkaedad lang kami I'm just ahead ng isang taon.