Warnings: Mentions of self-harm/suicide, Angst that is fluffy!!
3rd Person POV
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Ram was leaning against Kurt, his head resting on his shoulder tiredly, both boys had had a tiring football game, the Raptors beat them 27-3 which really blows for them. Kurt tilted his head over to look at the boy on his shoulder and smiles a bit seeing how innocent and Adorable he looks when he is exhausted.
Kurt thought the boy was asleep so he decided he would confess, Ram had been his crush since kindergarten but that's gay and he's not gay right?
"Hey Ram? I have something to tell you.... I'm in love with you but uh no homo!! I uh ..... I have liked you since kindergarten, remember that time when you said we would get married because girls just didn't seem to be your thing in first grade?? Well, I was hoping that would be true. That doesn't make me gay right? It's a good thing you can't hear me right now....."
Kurt had tears in his eyes and he sighed and buries his face in his hands, stressed out about all the world and everything he has to be but can't. He felt the boy on his shoulder shift and he tensed until the boy stilled. Tears flowed down his cheeks.
"Hey Kurt?? You know that you are like really homo for liking me right?"
Kurt's eyes widen and his mouth fell agape
"Oh uh you heard that?!"
Ram turned his face and tiredly placed his lips against Kurt's.
"It's ok Kurt, I love you too, lot's and LOT'S of homo bro." Ram was smiling until he noticed Kurt's tears. He quickly got on his knees and placed his hands on Kurt's cheeks, using his thumb to wipe away his tears. "What's Wrong?!"
Kurt leaned his face against Ram's hand, "I just....I never thought I would ever hear you say that.....I thought I was weird and that as soon as I tell you, you would call me homo and run away and be really disgusted and would hate me and-"
Kurt was cut off by Ram Kissing him again, he kissed back and giggled.
"Our teeth bumped." Kurt couldn't stop Giggling. Looking into Ram's beautiful eyes he knew that he was gay and he loved it. He had finally gotten the boy he loved and it was amazing.
"Earth to Kurt, you good??" Ram said with concern and laughter in his voice.
"Oh uh, yeah!!! Hey Ram? Do you wanna be my boyfriend???"
"Oh my God yes!! I have waited since Freshman year for you to say those words!!" Ram tackled Kurt into a hug as his kisses all over his face. He was laughing and having such a wonderful time, even if they had lost the game, they still had this moment and that is something that they can never replace. Ran looked down at Kurt. He noticed blood staining the sleeves of Kurt's letterman jacket. "Kurt?? What's up with the blood on your sleeves???"
Kurt pulled his hands away from Ram's view. "Oh I uh probably got hurt on the field, I better go get that checked out." He got up only to be pulled back down by Ram, who yanked up his sleeve, gasping at all the cuts that lace all up and down his arms.
"Kurt.....why...." Ram choked out a sob and he started to carefully kiss over each and every cut on Kurt's arms.
"Ram..... I'm sorry....I did this to myself.... I couldn't stand it because you loved girls!! Only girls!!! It wasn't even a thought in your brain about you loving me!! You had the Heathers' and all the girls who were literally swooning over you and and.....you flirted and winked at the girls and I just couldn't take it!! You were so perfect and I was a mistake!! I had imperfections that can get me shot!! I am so so sorry Ram....." Kurt was refusing to meet the eyes of his now Boyfriend Ram. "Remember when I came to school with a broken arm?? And I told you I broke it playing football?? Well.....I tried to jump off the old mill bridge but I kinda failed....."
Ram was in shock, this boy, the boy he had loved for so long was telling him he had cut because of him and tried to kill himself because of him!! He pulled Kurt into his lap and made him look up. "Kurt, I love you, and I always will, you are beautiful, so beautiful to me and I will never ever let you go, I am so happy to have you in my life and be able to hold you and call you mine, and I never want you to feel alone ever again ok? You have me, you have the Heathers' who will accept you!! They already accepted me as bi and they will accept you my love ok?? If you ever feel that way my door, or window, are always open for you and my arms will always hold you when you need if or even when you don't. I love you." The boys kissed gently and pulled back to look into each other eyes.
Ram was crying and so was Kurt. Kurt smiled a bit and nods, really tired and beaten down from their game but he wanted this moment to last for forever. Kurt made a decision.
"H-hey Ram? I don't know if you want this but made do you wanna come to my house and have a sleepover and cuddle and watch movies and eat jiffy pop??"
"Hell yeah!! I get you as my boyfriend and now we get to watch movies, way jiffy pop, and cuddle? Can this day get better?!" He was smiling from ear to ear, his happiness to large to contain.
~ Time skip to them getting to Kurt's House ~
"Hey boys!! That game sure blew, You'll do better next time though!!" Mr.Kelly bellowed, putting a hand on Kurt's shoulder. "What's up son??"
"Dad...well I...uh... I'm gay....Me and Ran are dating...." Kurt looked down at the look of Disappointment his Dad gave him.
"Son, we can send you and Ram to therapy!! You'll be back to being straight in no time!! I'm so glad you told me, we can fix this!!"
Surprisingly, it was Ram who started to yell at Paul. "Being gay isn't something you fix!!!! It's not a damn choice!! You can't just go back to being straight when neither if us were straight in the first place!! Get some real facts old man!! And love your Damn son because he is the best and most special boy in the world and he deserves the world and so SO much more!! He doesn't need your Homophobic bigotry. Now, we are going to go watch movies, don't even speak to us until you can learn that Kurt is so special and so amazing and that being gay is ok." Ram pulled Kurt up to his room, raging and wanted to punch Paul right in his ugly face.
Kurt was shaking and crying and wouldn't look Ram in the eyes. "I fucking hate my life......" Kurt paced and sobbed, unable to hold back everything that had piled up. He felt strong hands wrap around him from behind and immediately calmed and pressed himself Against Ram. "Thank you...for standing up for me..... I never would have done it myself...."
Ram just held Kurt tightly, letting him sob into his shoulder, rubbing Circles onto his back until his sobs subside and his hands stop holding onto Ram's arms so tightly. He gingerly layed down with Kurt and turned on a movie on the black and white television Kurt had managed to get his Dad to let him put in his bedroom. Both boys watched the movie, not having much of a feeling like eating anymore.
When the movie ended, the boys put on some sweats and crawled into bed, cuddling each other and holding each other until the sun rises.
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