To Fly Without Wings (Monsta X Oneshot ff)

To Fly Without Wings

October 2019~

"No, no, no, NOOOOOOOOOO! This is not fair!" Hyungwon screamed at the top of his lungs. The boys had just received news that Wonho would be leaving the group as a whole. Ghosts from his past had returned.

"Hyungwon, please relax. I know this may be hard, but we have no choice." Mr. Kim tried to console Hyungwon. Around the room you could hear sniffles and some even full out sobbing. Mr. Kim made some closing statements and ended the meeting. "That concludes this meeting. Wonho you may see yourself out to finish packing."

The staff left the boys to dwell in their own tears and sadness.

"Guys, pull yourself together, okay? It'll be fine. You guys will be fine. You'll do great without me." Wonho smiled at the rest of the broken group, trying to reassure them that everything would be okay.

"Wonho, it's not okay! You could be jailed if you're found guilty! Do you want to go to a place that houses murderers and rapists?" Minhyuk shouted across the long, mahogany table.

"No, of course not. And like I said, it will be fine. I have an amazing legal team that'll help me get through this," Wonho said as he walked over to give Minhyuk a hug. " We should...um...head to the dorms so I can finish packing."

Everyone wiped their tears as best they could and headed down to the van.

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Hyungwon couldn't get out of his head during the car ride. His mind kept playing tricks on him telling him that he would not be fine when Wonho leaves and that he won't make it.

They pulled up to the dorms and everyone filed, still misty-eyed.

While Wonho went to his room to begin packing, the rest of guys couldn't be around him. If they were, they would try to stop him, so they just sat angst-filled, ready to burst at the seams in the living room. They knew there was nothing they could do and that his departure was inevitable.

"Okay, that's everything." Wonho had finally finished packing up four years of memories. Four years of hardships. Four years of spending time with his fellow band mates, his brothers, his family.

"This is wrong. You know it. We know it. The fans know it. Hell, even Starship knows it." Shownu got up from the couch, finally having enough of the dreadful scene that played out in front of him.

"I know, Shownu, I know. I made a mistake and now I have to own up to it and take the consequences. I don't want my mistakes to hinder the group's future. I don't want it to bring you guys down and hold you back. You'll be fine without me. Please, trust me." Wonho wiped Shownu's face and gave him one last hug. "You've been the best leader I could have ever asked for and I thank you so much for that. For the years of guidance, care, and friendship."

"You're welcome."

While everyone was saying their final goodbyes, a knock came at the door.

Kihyun went to open the door and sunk his head down. "Wonho, they're here. It's time."

And with that, Wonho of Monsta X was no more.

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January 2020~

Since Wonho's departure, everyone's been slowly recovering. Everyone except Hyungwon.

Nothing excited him anymore, nothing at all. He put on a smile for the group and Monbebes, but deep down that smile was just a lie, a coverup. Hyungwon's mind sometimes drifted to the conversation that he had with himself during Wonho's last car ride to the dorms to pack up his life as a member of Monsta X. And the voices were right. He wasn't fine and he wasn't making it. He was just barely surviving.