heart break

chapter 2

So this is day 2 of my blog.

Well how do I start. Last week I went for a meal with harry it wasn't a meal meal a pizza from Pizza Hut. It was nice being with him and having a normal conversation with him, he didn't have to calm me down or yell at me before I hit the shit out of someone. It's hard having to live with depression and anger issues. I really fucking hate it when people joke about anger management but really when you have to go and live with anger I feel like dieing its really boring you have to tell other people your story and how you dealt with it. So back to the meal, it was great we shared are first proper snog it was amazing I have never felt so safe with him before.

Why did depression and anger ruin my life? Why is my life so fucked up?

It's horrid being like this and not knowing why, did God pick me to be so messed up. I hate being so easily trigged by words, and I feel like fucking someone's face up. Why? If you are reading this and you are like me please hear me out and maybe you can give me the answer to the questions.

When the anger first hit me I felt like what the fuck why do I feel like this, oh I bet its hormones and nothing to serious it was horrifying to thing about it in that context. I felt alone and like I was dieing inside,also I felt bad for putting all the pressure on Harry, and my family. They are all careful with what they say now around me in case I flip which is not good. When I was 13 I didn't think anything like this would happen and I would achieve my dream of becoming an actress and acting with the likes of Ansel Elgort, Taylor Launtner and Liam Hemsworth but that will never know be achived will it. No.

                                            So that's all for today I will put

                                            another blog up tomorrow or

                                            Wednesday. A big bye from Chloe Grace.

(Please recommend to other people xx)