The Last Journey Together {Completed}

1. MEMORIES

We don't know what history would think about us but right now that was not what had mattered there were more important things which needed our attention. We were going to leave for the Himalayas today, the most beautiful place on the whole earth. I had visited it before when I needed to get the Pashupat astra for the great battle that lay ahead of me but now that all of it is over we go there again. That day had I known what the consequences of the war would turn out to be then I would have never fought the war at all even after Madhav making me understand for almost the whole day. I knew that we all had fought the great war which would be remembered for ages. I was not young anymore but that youth never got out of me, how much ever I tried. After the death of Madhav we all had been very discouraged and especially me and Panchali. We both were very close to him also called his favorites. Madhav was more close to Panchali than he had ever been to me, I think that if he had to choose between me and her he would have definitely chosen her. But I was not jealous of her. Since Madhav was with us no more I could not blame him for anything.

Panchali, the love of my life, I would not say the only but yeah I can surely say that she was and will always be my first love and first love is dearer than any other love for a person. She had decided to accompany us on our way to heaven. I knew that it would have been too much for her and tried to persuade her to not come with us.

"Why do you want to take your Subhadra there too?" she had replied.

I was left completely shocked. I knew that I had always disappointed her throughout my life. First when I married her she was divided between all of the brothers and it was because of me, had I not won her then she would not have suffered so much. Secondly, I gave her more pain by bringing in Subhadra in Indraprasth clearly she had disapproved of the idea of bringing her inside she had not allowed anyone in the palace but she somehow gave place to Subhadra in the Palace and in her heart too. But what could I have done I had no other option. Third, when she was gambled away by Bhrata Yudhishir and I could do nothing about it. I saw the way she had sent me pleading looks but I could not have unfollowed my elder brother's commands. She had wanted me to save her but I could not.

 I still remember how much I had cursed my self that night. And the last time when she saw her children burn in front of her eyes. I could not do anything, that Ashwasthma son of guru Dron had burnt down all our son's to ashes in front of Panchali's eyes. When I had brought Ashwasthma to her, she just forgave him because she said she could feel the pain of losing a son of her mother. She was just too kind to him, he should have been slain by the sword from her hands but she did not do it and I could not understand the reason, but Bhrata Yudhisthir praised her very much for this.