Alone & Afraid

Finding a way out

'this is all for your own good'

'this is just how it has to be to keep you safe'

'your just not ready for the world yet'

               They would always say this things to me as if i was had not heard them before they were like record player that kept repeating the same old toons over and over again.those who called them selves my "my protecters" .  it was some what like this befor though but the older i got the tighter the securety became every year on my birthday instead of doing what normal kids do they would sit me down in the blank room that only contained one aluminium  metal table and two aluminium silver chairs, and they would add one more set of rules to the already large growing lists of thing i could and could not do. the part of the list that held the thing i should never do surely outweighed the half of the list that held the things i could do.

        as i grew older this became more comon ot me until the year i turned 6 and the hokage of the village tunade brought me some books and bored games for me to play as continued to read the books and play the games given to me it becam more clear what it realy meant to have anormal life whant how loving, kind, happy, and joyful the life of a regular child could be over and compared to my system of making to/ through another day was what i would call cold eampty and meaningless it had no light to brighten up my days no mater how white and bright the rooms were it was nothing compared to the great blue sky and runnig felds of green in my books but even them it was limited and i want to experiance the sun and water and sky with my own eyes and smell the wonder sents of the world thoug my own nose but a still it was just a dream

        until it was my 13th bithday and after the meeting to add more to the list that hung over my had like death itself i reseved two more books these more advanced then the last the read "cinderela" and "romeo and juliet"  they seemed weried to me so after verything was over i had weant intp my room last on my bed and started to read the first one cinderela it was amazing and how i enved her happy endding   it was to beautyful but i did not want to be the prince who took her away but cinderela hersalf and i wanted a prince charming of my own to take to to see the beauty of the world and we would always be together no one else but us.

        at that time i finished the book and wanted to admideitly start the other one until i was told to tuen everything off the go to sleep amd as i did and that night i drempt about my prince charming i didnt know who it was going to be but i knew that it he would be smart, strong, kind haerted, caring, protective of me in a way other then the situation i was in know and somuch more but most of all he would be able to take me away to a place we bothe could call home and be there together forever.

       sorry for any spelling error (: ohh and also grammer