For The Starters

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Who are you
With that exhausted eyes
Why are you looking at me
With deep sigh

"Come on! The movie will start soon!" Nayeon shouted and Jeongyeon quickly hide her phone and turned her attention back to the girl who was now staring questionably at her direction but Nayeon quickly shrugged it off not wanting to destroy her mood and seat next to Jeongyeon while snuggling closer to her.

"Uhm can you move a little bit far?" Jeongyeon requested to the older one making it to frown but nonetheless move a little bit to give her some space.

Being with you
Than anyone else
But still
I don't know you

Nayeon just sigh and ruffled her hair and face due to frustration, still looking at the mirror with make up smudge all over her face, eyes were dead tired due to her self pity while remembering the pain she gone through with.

"Nayeon, listen I didn't expect th—"

"That what Jeongyeon!? That you wake up one day and realized that you didn't love me anymore!?" Nayeon spat angrily but the taller girl just looked down due to embarrassment.

"I gave you everything Jeong! What is still lacking on me!?" Nayeon said but this time she was begging infront of the younger girl while kneeling down and holding her hand tightly, afraid to let it go.

"I-I'm sorry Nayeon, I need to let you go, we both need it. I'm sorry I can't love you like how you are loving me right now." Jeongyeon said and slowly untangled her hand to the older girl and walked away, leaving Nayeon's heart in misery.

I want to know you
Not anyone else but you
Trapped in the mirror
My face about to cry

It's been 5 months yet here Nayeon was, always crying in her room alone, even her friends can't reach her as she blocked them all to her phone, afraid to look weak infront of them.

She was crying and crying until her body can't do it anymore and let her rest for tomorrow self pity again

Another day had passed and Nayeon suddenly thought look at herself in the mirror only to be shocked on what she see.

Her body looks tinner than usual, her eyes was bloodshot red due to crying nonstop, eye bags was clearly visible on her face and she looks paler than usual.

"This is not me"

"I did changed a lot."

Nayeon slowly thought to herself while thinking how on earth she will move on to her first lover knowing that no one can replace the girl in her heart.

Now I want to know it
You were doing great so far
I will tell me
For me

After the self talk in the bathroom, Nayeon slowly let go of herself in the isolation, she also unblocked her friends who immediately go to her apartment and comforted the girl.

She also try to take some advice on other people and instead of thinking about the unhappiest past of her, she shifted it by listening to some music or baking which she use for extra income.

I wanna thank you
Not collapsing out of exhaustion
Pull me up together with me

One year had passed and Nayeon can tell to herself that she was successful on letting go of her feelings that she caged on her heart for the past months.

She and Jeongyeon decided to call it quits and atleast to be acquaintance which the younger girl dismay since Nayeon was her bestfriend but she respected the decision while wishing the girl a best of luck.

Nayeon was indeed stronger and well learned now than before, thanks to her heart break, thanks to her experience, especially thanks to herself for not giving up fully on any problems she got.

So she promised that before she love somebody, she need to love fully herself first.

From today
I will start to love you
I mean I will love me now



A.N: the simple message behind this is that we need to love and trust ourselves first before anyone else cause loving ourselves can make us stronger in any trials we will get in future. :)
hope the story didn't bored you out 😅

-wan

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⏰ Last updated: Aug 22, 2020 ⏰

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