MewGulf One Shot

00.15 Last

STORY 00.15

A/N: So, this is the last part of the trilogy that's supposed to be a one shot only. I listened to multiple songs so I could gather the idea and the emotion. I'm not sure if it'll suffice or work with you guys but I hope you'll like it. Also I'll tell the songs that has inspired me in the end so that it wouldn't spoil you guys. Enjoy!

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LOVE WAS NEVER EASY. I guess what people had said where true. You wouldn't know how to love and how it feel without experiencing one thing. Pain. Without it, you wouldn't know your ultimate desire and that would be with someone you truly love. Longing, craving, waiting. You'll feel it all.

It has been weeks since Mew left and I've felt it. My ultimate desire and that's to be with him.

For years, he had been my other half. He's not just a missing piece but someone who holds me together. I was barely holding on but when he was gone, I shattered into millions of pieces.

He broke me but I shattered myself.

Mew knows me so well. Instead of me, he left. Leaving me with Lou because he knows I'll come down to this point. Where I'll be broken more than ever and Lou is exactly who I need to help me be stable. At least my core is.

As for Lou, she don't know a single thing. We said that Mew will be in a business trip. She had seen him go for trips and for sure she wouldn't suspect a thing.

She kept me company, she made me feel the love I needed. Somehow she fill every gap. I know it feels like I'm using her but that's the truth. She's my remaining strength.

But even with Lou by my side, I'm never alone but I never felt so lonely like this.

For the past few weeks that Mew was gone, I felt the loneliness without him by my side. Despite the chaos between us, he has been my anchor to sanity. But now it feels like tidal waves are too strong for me to handle without the anchor.

Everyday, old memories lingers on. I'm starting to doubt every happy memories. Are they true? In a sense of genuine. I overthink about the past and it affects the present me. I don't even know if I'll ever make it to the future. I'm slowly drifting away from the shore.

I have to knock myself out to realize the reality. I can't let myself sink when I'm Lou's only ship now. She'll drown along with me and I couldn't let that. Specially now, I'm not even sure if Mew will come back.

Day by day, the loneliness get stronger but Lou, she kept me smile. It comes but with her, it goes. I have to be strong for her, for myself.

After a week of breakdowns, I manage to pull myself together. Not completely but I did anyway. I busied myself with things. I've started playing footballs with my friends once again, bringing Lou along. Sometimes we go to a mall. Shop, play, and such. We bonded. Then the loneliness disappears.

But at night, it lingers again.

I've been trying to stop myself from calling Mew and ask for a sign. Should I stay or should I go? I don't know where he is even. Is he with his love now? Is he having fun? Is he in the same state as I am? Did he left me with Lou purposely so he can enjoy himself?

I don't know. I have doubts but I still hold on. Would I win or would I lose?

But then, a month had passed. Still no sign of Mew. Will he ever come back to us? Or he moved on?

"Dada," I look at Lou who sat beside me while I was watching in the living room.

"Yes?" I asked with a soft smile. "Do you need anything?"