Blind Love

Darkness.

Darkness.

All I saw was...complete darkness...I panicked inside, and realized after many moments that my eyes were covered...with some kind of wrapping? Yes, definitely a wrapping. I laid my hands over the wrap and felt my heart rate begin to calm down some...

Now if only I could find my nurse call button...my fingers roamed up and down the sides of the bed, and around the wall behind me. 'Ah! There is it.' I clicked it over and over again until I heard feet walking towards my room. "Okay! Okay...Regina look who is finally awake! How are you?" Asked the nurse, as she came up and checked my heart, and pulse. "Wow...looks like your heart is racing a bit huh?"
"Yeah...I couldnt see, and I sort of flipped out a little."

"Understandable. Regina during your accident you got shrapnel in your eyes...it needed to be removed, hence they eye covering."

"Oh. Oh okay...well may I get it taken off?" I whispered.

"Let me get the doctor?"

"Yes. Yes please..." I begged and leaned against my bed, groaning quietly. Damn. I had the worst headache of my entire life...

Oh my god! My mother! What would she think...what would she do!? She's going to kill me for not telling her. I mean...I sort of couldn't right? I was almost dying not hours ago! Yes, she would understand. She would have to understand. Oh no! College...I have classes! I have obligations. Damn of Corse this had to happen now! It is literally my luck...what the hell will I tell my teachers, and this is probably going to need recovery time correct I mean-

"Regina! Hi...I'm Dr. Whale. How are you feeling?"

I jumped for a moment when I was ripped away from my thoughts, but I quickly recovered.

"Yes, hello. I am fine...for someone who just woke up from surgery..I am fine." I whispered, and sighed. "Now may you please take this damn wrap off me, so I may go home?" I was irritable...and annoyed, and stressed and so many other things. God I couldn't even believe this! I was so stupid...why the hell did I have to text her back then? I didn't...

Whale laughed at me, and walked forward, I could hear the movement and he was now bedside my bed. Why was he laughing! God that made me angry...even more so then I already was, "Yes, Mrs. Mills...let's take this off and have a look shall we?"

I nod, and held onto the bed sheets...nervous for some reason...why was I so nervous! I couldn't help it I guess? Hospitals always made me very uncomfortable, and especially because I was here alone. No one beside me.

"Okay Regina. I am going to cut the side of the wrap, and take it off of your eyes. Let me know that, that's okay?"

I gave a weak nod, and bit my lip not able to speak. I was afraid that even if I tried it would only come out as a weak whimper.

"Okay Regina. Here we go." Whale whispered and I felt my wrap slowly being pulled away from my face and I tried to take deep breaths in and out.

There was silence and I turned my head in the direction he was in. "Um...take it off?" I whispered, and I brought my hand up to my head.

Skin. I felt my skin...not the annoying, itchy cloth on my face anymore, but my soft...skin. I didn't understand. "Wait! I thought...the wrap is off?" I whispered and tears sprang to my eyes. What the hell!

"Regina...I am so very sorry! The surgery...these things can happen. Not very often! But...but they do happen. Regina...is there anyone that-"

I whimpered and I felt as though my oxygen was being cut off, and I couldn't breathe. "Don't. Please don't. Please." I was in shock, and I was...I couldn't breathe..what did this mean! I would never see again!? I was....I was...- "so...what does this mean?" I asked and stared forward...

"Well...Regina, this means that you're...legally blind."

The words hit me like a truck, ha! Convenient huh? Cause I was just in a car accident. Well...I had to make some kind of joke out of it...to make me feel better...I could hear him still talking faintly in the background, but...it just sounded like muffled noise.

"Okay Regina? We are here for you."

"What?" I whispered, after I came back to reality.

"We're...we're going to get you help! Their is...support groups for this type of thing. People can help you, and be there for you. I can give you some pamphlets for some different ones."

"I don't want your support groups! Pamphlets? What's the point? I can't see them anyways." I whispered, and bit the inside of my cheek.

I heard a sigh, and a slight stutter. "Is...is their anyone we can ask to come pick you up? Someone who can watch you...until you're back on your feet?"

I shrugged and then remembered my mother. "Yes. Yes...my mom..." I whispered,

"Okay...that's great! What's her number?"
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"Regina!"

"Mom? Mom!" My head perked up and I searched the room for her voice.

"Oh my baby girl...don't you even worry! I am here...mama is here."

I knew she had been crying by the small waver in her voice, and the whimper that happened after she talked.

"Mom. Mom. Take a second...I know how hard it is. I'm living it! I know...just try and breathe." I whispered, voice wavering.

She fell against my chest, and at first I was taken aback but I slowly laid my hands on the back of her head, patting it. She cried and cried, wrapping her arms around me.

I was injured and my mother way crying...more like sobbing! "It's okay...mom it's okay." I whispered and sighed, staring at the ground. Nothing had truly sunken in yet...I mean it had, but...this was about to be the hardest time of my life. I'm blind. I'm blind...all I see is nothing, all I can do is be in my thoughts...and picture things by...thought and imagination. Darkness.

Complete and utter Darkness.