Full of My Love To You

Chapter 3: A Boy's Love

A few days ago, I was chatting to my girlfriend about each others feelings. She is the 'fast love' type. She said that as long as both parties see eye to eye and it isn't disgusting in bed, then it's OK. I said that I couldn't do that, I needed both parties to understand each other, I'll know that the other person's heart is true and also let the other person know that I care about him. We have to consider the possibilities of being together, rationality, each other's families and also think about how the two of us will manage our marriage so that it will be long lasting.

After listening, my friend shook her head and said, "You're too realistic."

Yes, I'm very realistic so my romantic boyfriend would often say that I'm a cold woman, cruel woman, emotionless woman, and then talk about how back then, his teenage heart was broken then broken even more.

I....think about it, and it's true.

I can't remember my first impression of Xu Wei Yu, I only know that we met. It's to the extent that I can't work out from primary onward, which year level we were classmates in, which year we parted.

In high school, I chose the humanities stream. He called me outside and dragged me to the back of the school building. He walked around in circles and was annoyed for a long time, "Why are you like this, why are you like this....."

He was good at humanities, I was good at sciences.

He accommodated me by choosing sciences, I didn't believe it and chose humanities, it was really a strange combination of circumstances.

I said, "Wei Yu, I'm going up now."

He became even more annoyed and glared at me. It was the first time he spoke icily to me, "Gu Qing Xi, do you have to be so cold?!"

I watched him turn around and leave, I didn't know how to manage these sorts of things and only felt very apologetic.

I wasn't naturally so ignorant that I couldn't see his obvious interest in me, but back then, we were still young and didn't have so many deep feelings. Even if there was a little impulse, a little ignorance, it was all immature. It's good to experience young love but missing it is also okay. In the future when you think back to it, you'll only gently smile or feel warm, or be as calm as a clear sky.

In high school second year, there once was a large spring outing. It was a rare benefit the school gave to the deeply suffering students and the plan was to go to Wuyuan County in Jiangxi Province. I don't remember how long we sat on the bus for, but after we got off, I was a bit car sick. My classmate held me and said, "Qing Xi, your complexion is bad, do you want to drink some water?"

I said that I'll be fine after walking and catching some air.

My desk mate was a calm and quiet girl, her personality was a little similar to mine so we got along well. We were at the very back of the group walking on the small country road. I felt that it was a rare relaxation time and a group of boys in the front had already started making a ruckus. After walking for a bit, someone behind me patted my shoulder. I turned around to see that it was Xu Wei Yu, I had forgot that his science class also came along, the arts stream were in the front and his were there back group. He expressionlessly handed over a water bottle, "Drink some water."

I froze for a bit and after recovering, I replied, "I don't want to drink." Actually it was because I couldn't drink it down, my chest felt a bit nauseous the whole time.

He frowned, "Your face is as white as a ghost!"

I....

My desk mate felt that the atmosphere wasn't right and worriedly asked me in a small voice, "Qing Xi, should we walk faster and catch up to the front?"