Destined for death: Alice✓

Does Cancer Make A Difference?¿

My Thought.
You know this feeling inside you like there's a break through something has finally happened,your secrets have been unleashed,but the result wasn't what you expected....I jumped in conclusion we are living in useless place,a place where it only hurts, a place where your life is controlled,a place where the truth is untold.

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Cancer,you have cancer?¿ Dad said to me, y....ye... yes...I...I...do,all of a sudden all the confidence I had was swallowed in, he came in and locked the doors of the living room and said cancer is for the weak and slapped me, and said your not meant to be given my name your a weakling and your sister was going to die any time from now,he said,he followed me as i ran he told me the meanest things,i quickly ran to the staircase but he had a hard grip on my leg with tears rushing down my eyes I begged and begged but he didn't listen,he dragged me down the stairs,he made me suffer like I ever caused him pain,he brought out a pocket knife and pierced it gently on my face down to my neck,and said YOUR WERE NEVER MEANT TO BE BORN,I took those words in, he dropped me on the floor like I was worthless,well I am worthless,like he said I was never meant to be born,I couldn't think about anything but those words,I am not a child of courage,I couldn't stand up to any of my parents.

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        Now my dad knows about my cancer,he told mum and they all acted like nothing happened I was so sad,I couldn't think straight,I kept on reading the same depressing book,and listening to depressing songs,I was just thinking deeply,the next day was Lisa's funeral,I felt so much rage I couldn't move,I felt so miserable.

Lisa's funeral

Darling get dressed it's Lisa's day,mum said,I quickly lock my door and packed some clothes into my backpack,I just wanted to run away,but I thought running away will be worthless,all I need is to die then all the pain will go away,all I need is to kill myself there's nothing hard about
I'm going to die anyways,I run up to my bathroom and look at myself in the mirror with the deep scar my father left on my face,mum was still banging on the door but I didn't listen all i thought of was death nothing more ,I thought my face slowly, it hurts,but I was use to the pain, open this door before I open it myself,mom said,I couldn't think straight, should I get killed by my mom or kill myself ,I slowly went to the door and placed my hand gently on the door knob,and opened the door,what kept you waiting,why didn't you open the door on time,she said,so....s....sorry mom,I was fast asleep I didn't notice,she grabbed by my arms,my skinny arms and said my angel you know mummy loves you,(my thoughts at that moment with tears dripping from my eyes,love!,you do know you know the meaning of love,I can never love a monster who kills their own daughter, i manage to mutter the  words) yes ma'am I know you do,she drops my outfit and the floor and leaves.
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       I dressed up and got ready for the funeral,and went to the mirror and said to myself,your a good for nothing creature,I touched my face and my hair I looked at my self in the mirror deep into my self and said,you are nothing but ugly I picked up the scissors and I've been watching my hair drop,why can't I finish the job,I used the scissors to scrape every single hair on my head till I bled,I felt sick in the guts then I started coughing out blood,I couldn't believe it,my cancer had already spread so quickly, I locked my bathroom door so no one could see my mess I made sure of that, I cleaned up with all the tissue boxes I had,then I heard a bang on the door,it's dad, we are ready for the funeral get down here so we can go,just a minute dad,I said,as I cleaned up and ran down to the car, what took you so long,mum asked,nothing ma'am,I replied (I thought,I'm dying but none of you seem to notice it is obvious you don't care even if you know what I'm passing through).

Hey guy's it's me,hope your enjoying the book^_^....sorry for making the chapter short,well it's a short story remember,and this is my first time doing this,all I need is support.