Whether you like it, or not. Lawrence x reader. A Dangerous Fellows fanfic

New Room

    I sighed as I sat up on my "bed"; the small blanket on the floor I slept on during my time here. I'm still exhausted as I haven't gotten much sleep. The sun is already shining brightly through the dirty windows in my classroom.

    I can't help but think about what happened recently. I know I shouldn't, it'll only scare me..but the way Scarlett died, and the person I saw outside the building, just yesterday, I couldn't get it off my mind. Ethan was right. The zombies aren't the only dangerous ones anymore. And that scares me. I know I told him we just need to be extra careful, but it's so hard not to be anxious about all of this. What if I get killed like Scarlett was? And..what if it really is because of me...Ugh I shouldn't be thinking about that. Eugene apologized anyways for suggesting it was my fault, but I just hope the group feels like they can trust me. They mean so much to me... Besides, I know he's just scared. He must trust me since he did ask to leave this place with me..i'm glad I rejected the offer though. I couldn't just leave everyone else behind.

    My thoughts get interrupted by a familiar knock on my door. Sighing, I stand up and walk over. When I open the door I see Ethan. He says nothing for a moment before explaining why he was here. "I thought you'd be pretty scared by yourself" I give him a small smile. In truth, I was scared. But having him here already made me feel better. "Thanks, Ethan"

I tried to think of a way to thank him with. I remember the candy bar I saved from last night's dinner. With everything going on, I couldn't bring myself to eat. "Hey Ethan, want a candy bar?" I asked him, as I dug it out of my pocket. "You didn't eat it last night?" His expression shows he is clearly very worried. "Yeah I did" I lied, trying not to worry him. "This is from a while ago" I hated lying to my friend but I know he wouldn't take it if I tell him it's from last night's dinner. Seemingly satisfied with my answer, the boy takes it from my hands and unwraps the candy bar. He quickly chows down the food. "You must've been really hungry" I conclude. "Yeah.." Is all he answered with. I mean, for a big guy like him, i'm sure our ration is definitely not enough. And on top of that, he does most of the repairs around here. Of course he's always hungry.

I start thinking out loud about places I wish I was. A buffet place or sushi place would be nice. Ethan just nods. I continue to tell him about how i'm a sucker for sweets and how whenever I go to a buffet, I just go crazy for desserts. "I'm sure you always go for the carving section, right?" I ask before I realize i'm just saying silly things while i'm trying to fill the silence. Luckily for me, Ethan is nice enough to listen and even smile for me. It makes me happy to have a friend like him. "You're right. Im a meat lover" He confirms my assumption. "But I don't mind the desserts" What's he implying? I ask myself before shaking it off and giving him another big smile. "Maybe we can go together one day." He nods.

Being with him really gets me thinking. I know being afraid isn't gonna help me here. I need to stay strong. And Ethan being here makes me feel so much better.

I get an idea but I'm a bit worried to ask. "Hey uh..Ethan?" He just nods again. "Do you think..maybe I can stay in your room? I mean...you already know i'm scared by myself and we can talk if we can't sleep." Although I highly doubt he usually has too much trouble sleeping at night. After all, he can hardly stay awake during the day.  He smiles at me again. "Yeah, I wouldn't mind that" I smile back. "Great..thank you." "Yeah. You can move in right now" This time i'm the one nodding as I pick up my blanket and the small amount of items I own and follow Ethan to my new room.