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Beginning of The End

She ran there with all of the strenght she got. When there was a few steps left she abruptly stopped. Her feets trembling to the core and barely standing straight, she took a few steps to make sure it was her. Her brain got shot it felt like. With body full of goosebumps, the rushing blood of hers turned stone cold. She wanted to rip herself apart but all that she could do was standing there looking at her laying on the ground with open, green eyes staring at blue sky, half smile on her face, black hair dancing in harmony with the wind, getting involved with the dust in the air. Her eyes gathered so many kinds of feelings. Vulnerability, sadness, grief, anger, hatred... But most of all loneliness. All those feelings mixed together formed stormy tears in her eyes. She tried to hold them in. Her eyes wouldn't let it and one tear following the line tattoo from the outer corner of her left eye down to her chin and the other one with leaked eye makeup would get even messier. Until that moment she just hadn't been really able to admit to herself that she really loved her. Even it was for a brief moment.

''After all this time. After all we've been through. After all that YOU've made me go through. Really? Is this the end? REALLY? IS THIS THE FUCKING WAY IT REALLY FUCKING ENDS!?'' she shouted as though she was tearing her vocal chords apart, bashing her feet to soil ground. She looked at the sky bursting into tears she felt like suffocating. Having no strenght left on the knees she got on them and placed her head on Zaina's lifeless chest. After a few minutes she got up and reached Zaina's face. She took a breath. It was a bit calmer. There was no sound but the wind. She looked deeply onto every shade whilst running her fingers through her young and pale face to memorize every inch of it. ''FUCK! I FUCKING HATE YOU!!!'' she screamed, held the sides of her shoulders and shook her. Got her upper body up and held her so tightly like that was what would bring her back. ''Wake up, please. Wake the fuck up...'' going back and forth she just held her and cried. For hours... For hours she hadn't leave her side. It was getting darker and it was time to go. So she gathered all the strenght her body allowed her to. She got up reached to Zaina's body, lift her up in her arms and slowly walked through the deserted track.