Still with you.

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JIN'S

I woke up with heavy breathing. My chest up and down, rushing and  suffocating. My lungs tried grabing oxygen as many as they could, alveolus obsorbing the gases making my heart thumping like crazy.

I dreamt again. About him. Him and me. Our crazy madly love.

I tried to forget him. I tried many times, to just throwing his vision of eyes away. I always tell myself. Just forget him. He was worthless. He did not deserve a man like me.

But why i keep remembering him? The fact that our love making keeps playing in my mind did not helping at all. For god's sake, that was the ultimate scene i wanna delete from my mind and my heart.

The love making that keeps repeating day by days. Untill there was something growing inside of me. Something that i was excited to tell him. Something that will strengthen our relationship, or so i thought.

I still remember the result of me throwing up, whining almost 24 hours and weird cravings was the baby that growing up inside of me. The fact that i was so happy at that time making my father went mad.

But i believed. He will take responsibilty on me and our baby. I smiled throughout the check-up but my father not. What you expect from an 18 years old boy growing up? My flying colours result was not vital and valid at that time.

I got screamed by father and a very unforgettable slap. But i still put faith in him. I love him and vice versa. How fool am i.

I waited. I smiled to myself, closing my eyes and keeps telling my self the same pharse. He will come. He loves me. And i love him.

But he did not come. He did not show up. I waited for him from the sunrise till the dawn coming, then night hugging the world. My body went cold, shivering and scared.

"Just why.." my tears wetting my cheeks as i cannot hold it anymore. Its hurt. Its damn hurt!

Everytime i dreamt about him, this is what happened. I fucking hate myself for letting my memories of him making me felt this kind of way.

I opened my eyes slowly. The sadness been replaced by hatred, wrath and grudges.

Jeon Jungkook. Just wait untill the day come where you will be the one who crying and begging for forgviness from me. I promised!

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Im sorry for the very late update. I did not have confidience in my self on writing books.

I wanted to delete this book but i love jinkook some freaking much tho😭