Loveless Shadows

Chapter 1

"Are you even listening, Raven?" I peep down at the redhead girl resting on top of my arm. I hadn't heard anything she's said since we got into the room.

Her hair is matted with sweat and her eyes are wide peering up at me. There's nothing separating her frail naked body from me, but the thin bed sheets. I push her away from me stepping over the naked guy who joined in our fun earlier.

"Where are you going," she says stumbling out of bed after me.

I can't help rolling my eyes as she pushes herself onto me, kissing my mouth, and tugging on my sleeve. Her lips tastes like vodka and marijuana.

"If I wanted to talk Carrie I would've answered the million times you asked those stupid questions," I push her body away again moving towards the door again.

She doesn't follow this time, looking at the floor shaking her head. "It's Charlotte." I hear as I walk out of the bedroom.

Honestly I couldn't care less what her name was. The floor is littered with cups and beer bottles as drunken kids make out and smoke in the hallway and on the stairs. I don't even remember who's party this is. As soon as I got here I was wasted in the first couple minutes. I'm not even sure I showed up sober. I grunt as I walk out the door grabbing another drink on the way.

"Hey Raven. Where are you off too so early. The party isn't even over yet." An annoying kid who's name I think is Brad slurs into my ear as I walk out the door. "I haven't seen you in a while. I should've known you wouldn't miss out on a party." He smirks following me out into the driveway towards my car. I roll my eyes knowing he sees, but that sadly doesn't stop him.

"How bout you fuck off Brad" I snap already annoyed.

What's up with everyone wanting to talk to me all of a sudden. First Carrie and now this dick. "Come on baby don't be such bitch. You've filled out nicely since last I saw you. Hell now I can tell you're a girl." He laughs grabbing me by my waist.

"Chill Raven, Chill" I hear someone screaming at me.

I hadn't even realized when I kicked Brad right in the balls making him crumble to the ground before punching the drunken grin off of his face. There's guys grabbing at me pulling me off of him, snapping me back to reality. I sigh grabbing the bottle of whiskey, I presume, that someone dropped in the grass before getting into my car. Ignoring the crowd that has formed in the doorway and speeding off. Somehow I make it to my house without any cops stopping me. I walk through the doors and past a yelling Sarah straight upstairs before collapsing onto my bed and passing out.

"Get up or you'll be late for school," My little runt of a brother yells into my ear.

"Get the hell out of my room."

The clock next to my bed reads 7:45. Great. Ryker huffs as he pads out of my room. I roll my eyes before getting out of bed ignoring the explosive pain in my head caused from last night. I'm glad this is my last year of fucking high school. The quicker I can graduate the quicker I can get the hell out of dodge.

I look like shit as I look in the mirror. My dark black hair was everywhere. My skin was red from the scalding hot shower I just had, and the dark circles under my hazel eyes finished the look off. I hurriedly brush my teeth throwing on the usual black shirt and pants I wear with my black combats.

"Ryker if you expect to get to school I suggest you get your ass in the car. NOW!"

I grab a cereal bar from the counter ignoring Sarah who's sitting at the counter scowling and walking straight out the door. I roll my eyes as Ryker comes bounding down the steps in knee high khaki shorts and a plaid shirt. Go figures. He reaches out and hugs Sarah and tells her goodbye.

I turn the AC up as I pull out of the driveway not listening to the nonsense Ryker's spewing next to me. By the time I drop him off at the elementary and get to the parking lot of the High school it's already 8:30.

I walk in past the hall monitor who's saying some shit about me not having a pass and being late. I just cant help myself as I turn around giving him the bird before ignoring him completely.

When I arrive to my first class, History, the teacher just has to put me on the spot stopping the lesson.

"Nice of you to join us Miss Ramirez."

"My pleasure Mr. Ross. I wouldn't miss being bored to death for the world. " I say sarcastically making my way to the back of the class.

I can tell he was bothered but he forces a smile and continues on with the lesson. The rest of class consists of him talking on and on about the Civil war and what not. About halfway through I'm snoring on my desk.

The day passes by painfully slow. By the time lunch comes I'm debating skipping the rest. I'm sitting at an empty lunch table reading as Lana slides in, in front of me.

"Don't you get tired of of wearing all of that black." She says as soon as she sits down.

I can't help but peer up at the only person I can tolerate in this damn school.

"Don't you get tired of asking that shit every time you see me." I roll my eyes.

"Sorry sorry I was just asking. Anyways how was your night." She beams up at me

I don't understand why she hangs with me and I don't think I ever will. She stands about 3 inches shorter than me, wavy brown hair, with small baby blue eyes. Her body filled with so many curves that if didn't tolerate her like I do I would've been smashed her. She was off limits though.

"Oh you know the usually. I went to a party got wasted, had a threesome." I smirk at the horrified expression on her face as her cheeks turn red.

"Omg Raven, that's gross."

"Eh it was fun." I shrug

"Do you even know who they were." the horrified look still on her face.

"Nah some chick named Carrie and a guy named Carlos."

She bursts into laughter. "Knowing you that most definitely isn't there names."

I shrug again not bothering to hide the smirk on my face.

"So did you hear about the new kid. I heard he was a total hottie." she says biting a fry.

"Nope, nor do I care." I say snatching a fry from her plate and shoving it into my mouth before she can say anything. I flip her off as she glares at me.

Rolling my eyes, I pick up where I left off in my book and continue reading. Nodding my head as she goes on about some guy she likes in her chemistry class.

I hadn't even noticed when a kid stopped at our table until he speaks/

"Hey is it okay if I sit there."