daily death

Sunday 16 August 2020

At 6am I tried to open my half closed eye but didn't . Charming sound of rain let me sleep till 9am that makes my mother crazy when I finally woke up although it's not only me but all me siblings were sleeping but I was the only person who get insulted and cursed . the beautiful morning get worst for me then I cleaned my face and starts mopping the floor when I finished my work I saw my mother cleaning kitchen and cursing me that it's me who had made amlet and the parts of eggs were sprouted on the kitchen tiles. Then I had taken my breakfast a little bit of aaloo bhujia some sabji and two chapati .I get freshed and made-up my mind to study and again a heartless Voice strikes my ear ,why you all have eaten all the things I have made ? Are you all monsters? Or you all are planning to kill me? You, you are the most worst girl why you have done it . I will not going to cook any food for lunch.she ends and I have taken I deep breath and trying to come back to original mood to study but it looks impossible .it just irritates me and make me hollow from inside ,now I don't wanna do anything ,just want peace of mind.
My phone range at 12 in afternoon,it's anju aunty calling me with suit to do some  stitches,suit which I bought  yesterday infact it's gifted by abha aunty because I helped her child in studies in lockdown and I denied to take money from her .I had gone there and there only I feel relaxed and I forgot about my house and problem too.
it's 2pm I entered in kitchen to take lunch and what I had seen is that there is rice Dal and little bit of sabji and bhujia , I picked up only bhujia and very little sabji ,I completed my lunch watching caption marble which my brother was watching , everything  was going alright and suddenly my mother screams , you all have eaten all the things? Don't you ashame of yourselves ? Shameless creatures,I feel so miserable and find myself upset and overthinking, then I saw its 3pm , I had gone to abha aunty house to help her son in studies till 4:30.
At 9pm reading preeti shenoy novel ,phone rangs I pickup the call ,oh it's my neighbor aunty calling me,I hurried,and stand up suddenly and moved to her house, meanwhile a voice filled with hate Strick's my ear,where are you going now??? you didn't even took permission from  me to go anywhere? And alot of crushes,I replied,yes mummy it's abha aunty urgent call she requested me to come so I am going and I will be back in a minute said giving fake smile .

Then I  think to write this story as I has planned a month ago ,my mother was again screaming in kitchen and I don't dare to go on that side and also not able to focus on my novel story .
I can't help myself .....but I am trying my best to find out the best way to do something worthy....I hope I will be able to do  whatever I have planned ...I am the one can help myself better. Good night 😊