What Am I to You?

Part 2

"Be honest....it's because of him isn't it" he turned to look me in the eyes. I couldn't meet his eyes. I know hobie was my best friend and knew everything about me, but I still felt awkward talking about my crush on my bias in front of him. Its almost like hobie became a different person. I could never really understand why. It had been this way for as long as we had been friends.

The first time i went over to the dorms to hang out with Hobie and the rest of the guys I remember spending hours getting ready. No outfit I tried on was good enough. When I was done my room looked like a tornado had blown through it. I had finally settled on a pair of navy blue high waisted sailor shorts with gold buttons and a lacy white top and some nude flats. I went for a natural makeup look. I didn't want to look like I was trying too hard. I looked in the mirror one more time as my doorbell rang. I answered the door trying not to look too excited. Hobie grinned at me. "Wow! You look great! What are you so dressed up for? You don't have to try to impress me!" he winked. I blushed slightly. I wondered if he would like it too. As we pulled up to the dorm I was amazed at how close their dorm was to my apartment. Hobie jumped out and ran to my side quickly opening the door. "My lady" he smiled with a bow. It was actually pretty adorable. He walked me into the dorm living room where all of the guys were waiting. "Welcome to our home." hobie said. I bowed quickly introducing myself. "Oh we know who you are" namjoon smiled showing off his gorgeous dimples. "We've heard all about you from hoseo....I mean jhope" taehyung added with a snicker. Hobie shot him a look. "She can call me Hoseok. She's our new friend now....or She can call me her hope, her angel, her one and only. I'll accept any of those." he laughed. I couldn't help but giggle. "Well if that's the case she can call me by my real name too" he said taking my hand and winking. "You can call us all by our real names" jungkook piped up glancing at hobie's face with a smirk. I looked over to see what he was looking at but hobie just turned and took my hand, leading me to the couch to sit. "Well we thought we could order some food and all get to know each other better. Is there anything specific you want?" he asked quickly changing the subject. "I'm not really picky" I said glancing around the room at the other 6 sets of eyes on me before turning my eyes back to hobie. "Not picky? That's my kind of girl." jin laughed. I blushed again. I was pretty sure that was a compliment. "I've got an idea then...why don't you cook hyung?" hobie said turning back to him with a sharp look. I was kind of confused at his behavior but then again I only knew the idol not the people behind the stage personalities at the time. I had no idea how they acted around each other when the cameras were of or if this was normal. "Sure...why not?" jin said shrugging off hobie's glare. "Oh do you need help?" I asked jumping up from my seat. "I've got this" jin smiled as hobie pulled me back down on the couch. We all sat around the living room in awkward silence as we waited for jin to cook dinner. "Sooo....." namjoon said trying to break the silence. "What do you like to do for fun?" Maybe he really was the king of destruction because with that one question he broke my awkward shyness. "Well I'm still pretty new to the country so I don't have many friends here. I mainly work, go home and study, cook, and I live for music." With that yoongi's ears picked up. "What kind of music?" he asked. Did I really just catch yoongi's interest?! "Um...a little bit of everything but mainly hip hop, rap, and kpop." I added the last part blushing again. I knew what question would follow. Fortunately I was saved by the dinner bell....or jin to be exact as he called us all in to eat. He had made some kimchi jjigae, roasted some pork belly, and prepared all the sides. I was amazed as I sat down to the table. Hobie immediately grabbed one chair next to me. Jimin took the other. I thought I would be spared the question I knew was coming in the living room conversation but hobie decided to pick back up where we left off. "Have you heard our music?" he asked as if the conversation never ended. "I have.... I'm actually a huge fan" I answered deciding to be honest. "Oh really?" jimin asked grinning mischievously as he slung an arm around my shoulder. "Who's your favorite?" "my...my favorite?" i swallowed. "Yea who's your favorite member?" I felt like the room was closing in on me. "Well I think all of you guys are amazing!" I said trying to avoid answering the question. "You have to feel closer to someone don't you?" hobie said moving his chair closer to me and smiling brightly like he did every time I saw him. I could feel my face start to burn. "Guys!" jin cut in, " give her a break." hobie scooted his chair back a little but jimin left his arm around my shoulders and winked. I felt like my heart was in my throat. "It's obviously me." jin finished. I couldn't help but burst out laughing. I wasn't expecting that at all, but it did relax me a bit as we finished eating. After dinner we all made our way back to the living room again. It was a night filled with laughter and jokes. I managed to keep my secret all night too...for now.

"Hooooobiiiiie" I pouted as I rolled over on the floor to lay my head on his lap. I hated when he got like this. I know he was known as liquid sunshine and that he put on his bravest face when he was sad or hurting but I didn't want him to take being happy. I wanted him to truly be happy. I reached up poking at his cheek. "I just wanted to learn the dance." I said again trying to be more convincing. He began to let it go and brighten up again. I might have gotten away with my little white lie if he hadn't walked in when he did.....