Dear Diary

#1

2020-08-18
Dear Diary,
These weeks have been a challenge. Ever since we moved everything seems so hard. I mean I don't go out as much as I used to. Always at home. No not home this ain't home for me. Home is where I had my friends. And all my neighbours and school. This is not what I call home. It's just some house we were staying at before we moved to our actual new apartment. But is that going to be easier? When we move to our new apartment. I mean it is not the same town. Well of course cause this is the damn capital. And I used to live in a small town that people don't even know existed, not the same people and it's not gonna be the same school? Just six more days and I am starting this school that I didn't even choose to go to and I know nobody there. Like NOBODY. Except my cousins that also go there. One of the reasons my parents want me to go to that school. And yeah I get it I go to the same school as my two cousins , why wouldn't i wanna do that? but let me tell you, first I am like 3 and 5 years older than them. Second they are not mature enough to get me or understand me and lastly they are the biggest snitches in the family. So it's gonna be hell to go to that school. And what if these people that am gonna meet there don't get me? Like that I'm outgoing. And am not afraid of speaking and saying what I think is right and not. And am also very supportive and I like to see others happy. Always there for my friends when they need me. Gives good advice to those who need it. Like to hangout with boys a lot. They are my homies. They always understand me more than some girls. and they are always there for me. People really like me and I have never had a problem with making new friends. With anybody either they are shy or like me or nerds or anything. They always liked me and my personality. Sure I have been to some fights but that's not the same thing. But back to the subject what if these people don't see all that? What if they see things from another perspective. Because I joke around alot and can say some things that are supposed to hurt people to my friends cause we think that shit funny. And they don't get offended. And they do the same to me. and it just shows how much we love each other. We were like family. The people I used to be with know that, all my old friends, that I sometimes can't talk seriously or take some things seriously. also that i like to do wild and risky stuff with my friends like we used to do so much problem in my old school and those other students really liked us and how we did not care about rules and stuff. So I got a lot of older friends and I loved it. And I didn't want to leave it either. One of the reasons my parents wanted to move in the first place was because I was in so much trouble with school and some people. And that's just who I am. And I can't help that so what should I do if these new people I am about to meet don't get all this? Well yeah I guess that's my problem that I need to get a solution for. or else am gonna have the worst year of all time. So we can just hope for this to go well . But imma update after the first day and see how this shit goes.

xoxo sugarbunny