Nerdy Love In Hiding (my chemical romance fan fic)

Chapter 17

Soft knocks came at the door though a couple minutes later. I knew it was them but what would I say. I mean those songs had been my life it had explained my life my whole life. Yeah I guess it was the same for Gerard when he first sang but I don't know I guess its different when its me.

"Sage are you alright I'm sorry I took your book, but these are really amazing." I stood on the other side of the door listening to Franks soft voice. He laughed a little and I opened the door. I hugged me along with every one else of the band. I felt like I was a part of a different family, a more caring and loving family I guess you could say.

"Sage when we finish this tour I was wondering if we could use some of these lyrics?" Gerard took the book from Frank and passed it back to me. I just nodded not knowing what to say, no one has ever asked me something like that. Their faces all lit up, I guess I was kinda part of the band... that realization hit me with a shock but I tried not making a big deal out of it.

That night they had their last show and I was in the hotel room alone as usual. They had asked me if I wanted to go but today wasn't the best of days, I had a major headache that had been there all day. I think just being stressed or being home sick or not knowing exactly where I am in the world made me feel a little sick. I had to get over it though. Watching tv in the room I looked at the clock the guys wouldn't be back for at least three to four hours.

I slowly fell asleep on the couch when my headache became to much for me.

The door of the hotel room opening didn't even wake me up. I woke up in the morning alone which felt almost normal but I had this awful taste in my mouth and my throat felt like it had been coated with something. No matter how many times I drank something nothing would work. I sat back on the couch and I just thought I was sick but I don't know how I was sick it didn't feel like a normal sickness. Maybe I was stressed but stressed about what was the question.

then I really thought about it I wasn't sick, I was depressed. Why would I be depressed what did I have to be depressed about? I shook my head and thought maybe I just needed some air or something? I walked over to the window and opened it, breathing in the foreign air. It didn't really help. I left the window open and walked with purpose all the way to Frank's room. Opening the door he was reading a book, he didn't even notice that I walked in until I sat down on the bed at the bottom near his feet.

"Hey what's up? How did you sleep?" I shrugged and he sat up more and stared at me with concern.

"Talk." I demanded him to and he smiled, the feeling in my throat started to really go away now and as soon as he talked to me, as soon as I heard his voice the feeling was gone the sickness had left. He was now my music that's what used to help me before I had met Frank before I had fallen in love with him. Music used to get rid of that feeling but now its only his voice that can do it. He is my music. He started reading his book to me just so I can hear his voice. He laid back down and I laid beside him. Closing my eyes I almost fell back asleep listening to him read out loud to me. I loved it it has always been a dream of mine to have someone read out loud to me. Now that dream has been successfully done.  

Today we were heading home back to New Jersey my home town. I think I am gonna be happy getting home. It's gonna be good. I am just wondering what my mom is gonna say to me and how long I'm gonna be grounded for but frankly I don't care.

Long trip back home filled with music tv videos games and awesome things later.

Finally home.

 I don't know whats gonna happen between me and frank I mean is he just gonna leave because he isn't on tour now was I just a one time deal. Just a girl on tour or am I more then that.

I walked into my house alone there was no one there. I thumped my bag down and breathed in the jersey air. My home smelt so foreign to me but so comforting. I walked forward a couple steps and stopped. This felt right and wrong being home. I felt like I didn't belong. I turned back around and Frank stood there with a sad face on, I wanted to run, I wanted to hid and avoid this moment but I knew that one day I would have to face it. I guess that moment was now.

"What's gonna happen now with us Frank?" He stood shocked.

"Nothing is gonna happen...  We are gonna stay the exact same, I love you and I can't let you go I wont let you go, there is no chance I can survive with out you I need you." This was a shock to my system, I thought he was gonna say almost the opposite, and leave me. I thought he was gonna just go and leave me alone, maybe find someone better on their next tour. He believed in us and that gave me the strength to step towards him and push my lips aggressively against his. His hands moved quickly to my side pulling me in with such passion and love it made my knees weak.