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I won't be okay: Chapter 3

Chapter three

Anything in italics is a thought

(Y/N) - your name

(L/N) - last name

-  4 year time skip because I'm lazy and school just started  -

We had trained together, we had run away together, but most importantly we had formed a bond together.

I had always been quite too scared to get close to anyone ever again afraid they might hurt me or take something away. But these people didn't take, they gave, they gave so much, my courage, emotions, happiness, and a place to call home. 

4 years had passed by like it was nothing but the memories we made stayed with me forever and they always will. 

They say forgetting is the easiest but remembering was the hardest. 

But this, this I would never forget because it flashes before my eyes every time I close them. 

Her lifeless body on the ground, his dead eyes staring off into the void and Levi standing with tears running down his face. 

We were so happy so close to everything we'd ever dreamed of but it was gone, just out of reach never to be touched again.

I looked over at Levi as his salty tears turned into pure rage, he glanced over at me and we attacked. 

The years that had gone into building up courage and breaking down my walls. The years it had taken to learn how to defend myself were being used at the very moment. 

My head was clear. I

 knew exactly what to do, kill, and avenge them. 

Levi and I flipped our swords so they would glide behind us with every blow we delivered to the titan.

 We were in sync almost as if we were not our own individual, and maybe at that moment, we weren't. 

Every inch of the titans being was cut, the blood sprayed everywhere and engulfed us in the bloody waterfall. 

Levi delivered the final cut and we both landed by each other's side. 

I fell to my knees and began to sob, every smile Isabel and Furlan had smiled washed away from their faces leaving blank and angry faces in their stead. 

I couldn't take it, I wanted to scream. I wanted to yell but my voice got caught on the guilt and never left my mouth. 

My mind was filled with what was our last moments together "Ah don't worry we'll be fine" they said with an innocent smile on their face as they left me and Levi while arguing over who would kill the most titans. 

Were they brave? 

Did they fight till the last second? 

What if I was there I could have helped right? 

I wasn't just dead weight I could have helped them, saved them, right? 

My eyes didn't focus on anything or anyone they couldn't they were too filled with tears. I felt a hand wrap around my arm and pick me up.

 Were we going home, but where was home? it was taken away just like last time. 

Images of Leon's silhouette and mom's hollow scream started to flood my brain along with the lifeless bodies of my friends. 

I began to shake, my breathing became labored and I could feel my lungs scream for oxygen but they weren't getting any. 

The dark had always been comforting. You couldn't see anything so there was nothing you could do, it was an excuse to be helpless, but as the darkness started to surround my shaking body I couldn't help but feel frightened until the darkness had completely engulfed me and I lost consciousness. 

My body was limp but my mind was livid with thoughts. Anger, disappointment, guilt, sorrow, emptiness, and darkness. 

Every place I had been touched began to burn in my head, I could hear their laughter turn into discorded screams. 

It's my fault all I wanted was to be loved but I don't work for it I was just given it I didn't deserve it so of course it was taken away there was no other explanation.

I could feel the bumps as the carriage ran with the wind away from them away from the place where my home had died. 

I wanted to open my eyes and help but I was in darkness so I didn't need to, right? 

I felt hot tears stream down my face as I tried to open my eyes but my body resisted, the tears felt like acid, they burned with horrible memories.

I gave up trying and let the chaos of my thoughts take over until I fell asleep in the carriage which carried me away from the people I called my home. 

Ok so this chapter might have been a little dark... I'm sorry if it was short too school just started for me so it might take a little longer for me to update this story hope you don't mind  

thank you babes, later!!!!!

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