Fluctuating Emotions

Chapter 3: Start Of The Downfall

Christoff's POV:

The saddest part of being left is that we know that the closeness we have will diminish. Days passed and here I am, still in love with my best friend.

My phone beeped suddenly, waking me out of my reverie. I rose from my bed to get my phone from the nightstand. I smiled when I saw the name of Al in the notifications. I read her message.

"Hey bud, got something to tell you. Call me please 🥺."

All of a sudden I became worried. Something must have happened. So I called her immediately.

It took 2 rings fo her to answer.

"Chris, aHhhhH!!!!!" she screamed. It was so loud that I even have to get the phone away from my ear for a bit.

"Hmm, that doesn't seem like a scream of trouble" I said when I realized that she just screamed like a teenage girl noticed by her long time crush. Little did I know that it is what's happening.

"Trouble?? I'm not in trouble, babe" she said.

"The thing here is, remember John? The oh so hot John from the Science Club?" she added excitedly.

"Of course I know him. Just to remind you Al, I'm the President of that club and he's the Vice President." I said in a bored tone. I kind of know where this is going. Let's just say that Al has been eyeing John for how many weeks already, with the help of her other popular friends of course, because I wouldn't dare help her. It would hurt a lot.

And also, truth is John and I aren't that close. He's the typical conceited Kpop lookalike guy and is really boastful of his 'Korean-like-eyes'. He is like the type that would plaster his face all over the campus and on social media with a caption of #wokeuplikethis and #notyourtypicalboy. I rolled my eyes at that thought. Who would fucking dare to like him? he's a total fuckboy and a disgusting human. May he rot in hell soon. He will just hurt my Al, he'll never get serious unless I give him a serious beating.

"Ooops, that might have slipped in my mind. I am just really excited to tell you that he noticed me already and he knows about me!" she said while squealing.

I rolled my eyes because I'm severely irritated already.

"Oh, how?" I said with fake curiosity.

"Remember Kat? The girl in the cheerleading? She introduced me to him! Well, I asked her to, but you know, I wasn't expecting her to do it. So, imagine my surprise when I saw John's name on my DM!" she explained

Well yeah, imagine the pain that you inflicted when you told me this. I said to myself bitterly. I wouldn't let her know that though. I am not angry with her, I mean why would I be? It's not her fault that I am too coward to reveal my feelings for her. I am just quite annoyed with her choice of guy. She  knows what he is capable of doing and yet she let's herself be blinded by her crush with him. I just let her be though, I don't want to be the bad guy here. And Al is kind of stubborn, she gets what she wants. She even got me you know.

"Yeah that's great to hear but isn't he in a relationship with someone right now? You know the President of the music club is his girlfriend right?" I said.

It's true. John has a girlfriend and it is the President of the music club. How do I know? Let's just say that his girlfriend kind of "reached out" to me before and I saw her profile that says "In a relationship with John Marcelo".

"I don't know. He said that they’ve broken up already, besides I just want to be friends with him. He's funny and caring and just so handsome" she answered dreamily.

I scoffed internally. I am also funny, I mean my Mom says I am. I am also caring, I have been doing that to her for the past years. It just annoys me that a simple message of John saying 'have you eaten' have swoon her already. I have been preparing Al's meals for gods sake and yet the only thing I get from her is thank you! She doesn't get all mushy and this. Now that this asshole of a guy asks her if she have eaten, she's already head over heels.

This is just absurd. This is making my head ache. But the one really suffering is my poor heart.

"Wow he must be the one huh? Does he make you happy? If he does then, you have all my support. If you trust him that much then so be it, but just know that I don't really like him that much for you. Seems like he has this tendency to hurt people and pretend to be oblivious about it. I'm sorry Al but that's just how I feel and I don't want to keep it from you." I just said. I said that with truthfulness. I don't want to hinder her from being happy but I also don't want her to get hurt in the end.

Hurting is part of being in love. Yes, that's a fact. But I wouldn't just sit here and watch my best friend be manipulated. I have took care of her with everything I can and it's just not fair that she will get hurt just because of a worthless douche bag. It may even inflict me much more pain than Al. Seeing the person you dream of being toyed around by others.

"Woah dude that's so deep and that's a lot to take in. It's not like we're getting married already. I just find him cool and perfect and I'll promise to take things slow if this gets serious. And it's okay for you to be honest. It even makes me feel better because I know that you care for me, so thanks bud." she said softly.

I just smiled bitterly. Here we go again. I have experienced this before because Al is really popular that's why guys are constantly lining up to be with her. She's just really perfect. Well for me she is. She has a personality that can swoon and lure everyone. Her personality makes her even more appealing. Her long black hair and amazing eyes are the ones I really notice that sometimes I even get lost while looking at them. She is alluring that even the goddess of beauty herself would shy away.

"No problem Al, just remember that you can always count on me. If he hurts you, then I'll beat him to death, okay?" I said teasingly but on my the inside, I'm grieving.

"I have to go now, I still need to do something. Do you have anything more to tell me?" I added. I just suddenly became tired, the things she said are taking a toll on me and my head ache is making things even worse.

I have to process everything and assess my mental health because it seems like my situation is worse than I have initially thought.

"Oh, I won't hold you up Chris. See you at school okay? I'll just tell you more news there, bye, lovelots!" she said then hung up.

I deeply sighed, she didn't even let me say bye. That girl is really something. Her treatment on me makes it even more obvious that she doesn't want anything but friendship from me. Looks like I have to sort my thoughts and come up with something to save myself from this misery.

Revealing my love for her is out of the question. It's hard to confess to your best friend. You're torn with the fact that your friendship will be at risk, even if you say that you'll treat her well still, life is unpredictable. People change minds fast. We don't know that maybe one day she'll just fall out of love suddenly, without warning and then you have no choice but to let her go. Then your friendship will reach a downfall and things will get awkward even if you don't want them to be. Worse, you'll be force to forget about each other and move on. I don't want that to happen with us.

I will give Al the best care possible. I'll be more willing to sacrifice my happiness for hers. I guess that's just how unrequited love works. Makes you do selfless things.

I'm willing to be just friends with her even if it might hurt. At least I'm still part of her life. Nothing would be at risk, everything will be in place.

Or so I thought.

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A/N:
Hey amazing people! I haven't proofread this because my eyes are just tired to do so. Please forgive me for the grammatical errors and punctuation errors. Hope that you're all good! Have a happy life! See you next update!