idk what this is tbh, i just kinda thought of it bc of wha i'm ✨going through✨ rn😋. and what i wanna do. AGE GAP.
mattia: 25
kairi: 17
third person pov:
kairi walked up to the door of his bestfriends house shaking, today was the day he was finally gonna tell mattia he was in love with him. he's been in love with the other boy for 2 years now, listening as mattia talked about his boyfriend. it hurt kairi everytime alvaros name was mentioned. he wished he was alvaro. kairi knocked on the door slowly almost immediately hearing footsteps coming towards the door. only to be greeted by the man he was so deeply in love with. "hey kai! come on in"
when they both had sat down on the couch kairi took a deep breath, as he prepared what he was gonna say. "mattia, i've been in love with you for two years now, i know it's wrong but i can't help it. i know the age gap is big.. i know you're with alvaro. but i fell for you matti." kairi whispered softly hoping the other boy didn't hear him. mattia sat there dumbfounded, until everything his short friend said had clicked. he took a deep breath and looked at the boy.
"kairi you know i can't love you back. you know i'm with alvaro. you know the age gap. it would never work. i don't even know why you would try to make it work." mattia frowned as he saw tears escape from kairis eyes and the shorter boy run out of the house. what neither boy realized was alvaro had been there the whole time. listening to everything that was said. to say that alvaro was mad, was an understatement. so what did he do? he sent a text.
alvaro
what the fuck is your problem
kairi,, you're my friend, you
should be at least mindful about
that, and now you're crushing on
my boyfriend?,, not only that
but you're trying to make him
like you behind my back like that?
you're a terrible friend,, what a
fucking home wrecker,, you want
to be defensive and say that you were
just being friendly? i can't believe i
trusted you. i hope you're lonely, and
depressed. stay away from me and
my boyfriend.
READ 5:59 pm
kairi looked at the text with a blank face, until he got to the words "stay away from me and my boyfriend." thats when he realized his life was going to shit. he grabbed his phone and dialed mattias number quickly, the other boy picking up almost immediately. "hey kai-" "i think we should stop talking." silence. "what..?" "our friendship will never be the same, mattia." silence. "why are you doing this to me." "excuse me?" "what do you want me to do. you're making me choose." "see this is why we need to stop talking." call ended.
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(one day since allat)
kairi let the steaming hot water absorb him. it was his escape. as he dried himself off it hit him. everything hit him like a truck. he lost the only person that mattered to him. he lost the man that brought him genuine happiness. he lost mattia. tears streamed down his face as he sobbed into the hoodie mattia had gave him. it hurt so much. he felt empty. he felt hopeless. he felt like a part of himself was missing. he was broken. the thought of being by himself and not with mattia hurt. it all hurt. the short boy went to his medicine cabinet and grabbed his antidepressants.
he cried a little harder while remembering what he promised mattia. the older boy found kairi on the floor on his bathroom cuts all over his arms. "promise me you'll never try to kill yourself again?" ".. i promise". he let out a sob as he sat the medicine on his counter and went to the iphone box that held his sharpener and a pair of scissors. he carefully unscrewed the sharpener watching as the blade became undone and slipped into his hand. walking back to his pills and taking a deep breath, making sure this is what he needs to do. he brought the sharp blade to his wrist, pushing down hard, and sliding. one cut.
after a few more cuts he moved to the other arm, enjoying the way blood seeped out. eleven cuts. after he was satisfied with the amount of cuts on his arm, he slowly downed one pill. ten following suit. his mind started going fuzzy and he finally fell to the floor. seeing a tall silhouette he smiled thinking it was mattia. "mattia i love you so much. i'll always love you". the blood loss made him black out slowly, tears slipping out his eyes and onto the hard tiled floor. his parents shouting slowly died down. he was dead.
so n e ways, thank you iatnehbih for writing alvaros message miguel 😋😼
