A challenge is a challenge... and Forth is never one to back down so when the Head Hazer told him to kiss Beam after disrupting SOTUS yet again, he only smiled and saluted.
All the first years were in love with the bad boy Forth, boys and girls... b...
Beam was jelly, once again, Forth had done it with touch. Mindlessly he stepped aside and allowed Forth to enter. Forth slide inside and shut the door behind him.
"Thank you, Princess." he murmured, "How about we start with this?" as he took the ring box from his pocket.
Beam turned and walked to the small kitchenette that was tucked into a corner of the dorm. He grabbed a bottle of water and offered one to Forth. Forth shook his head, so Beam leaned against the counter, staying well away from temptation and said, "What do you want to know?"
"What's the meaning of this?"
"It means that I needed to catch your attention. It worked, didn't it? But you, you don't ever follow the proper steps..." Beam trailed off into nothing, his attention caught by the breadth and width of Forth's body in the tight T-shirt under the Engineering over shirt. Damn it, why couldn't he concentrate today.
"You caught me that night, Princess, and you'd have known it if you hadn't ran away." Forth said bluntly. "What do you mean steps? Don't you think you should just tell me what is going on?" He strode to Beam and put the water bottle on the counter. "Look at me and tell me what the hell is going on in your head."
"I liked it, Okay?" Beam yelled! "In fact, I didn't just like it, I loved it. Oh, I'm not talking about the sex, but I liked the way you made me feel safe... secure. Men aren't supposed to feel that way. I liked being courted. It made me feel too "girly", so I ran until I could get my head around the fact it didn't change me as a man."
Beam pushed Forth away from him and sat down on the only chair in the dorm room, putting his head between his knees. He looked so small, so vulnerable, Forth wanted to pick him up and cuddle him, but this was the first time Beam ever opened up and actually talked to him, so he let him talk...
"By that Monday morning, I thought, well, I had many thoughts but the main thought I had was if you really liked what we did, or liked me, you'd find me BEFORE the public kiss at noon. Settle things, talk or something. You didn't. Instead, you kissed me like you wanted me in public. Scared the fucking shit out of me. You're good at that, Forth, scaring me." Beam raised tired eyes to look at him.
"Why, Forth, why didn't you at least go with the plan and leave me with some hope?" Beam put his head down again and continued, "So, now a month has gone by, I decided that I can't live this way. Either I have to get over you completely or we need to work something out. I can't date other girls or boys. I want you."
Forth took in Beam's posture, from his slumped shoulders to his tightly clasped hands and moved fast. In one clean motion he picked Beam up and carried him to the couch, so they could cuddle while he had his say. Even if Beam could talk without body contact, Forth was physical. He needed the warmth, he needed Beam's body as closed as possible.
He placed Beam's head to where he could hear his heartbeat and not only the timbre of his voice, but so he could caress his arms or thighs as Forth needed to keep going.
"Beam, Princess..." Here, Forth stumbled, tried again, "Princess, that was the most amazing night of my life. But when I woke up and you were gone, my first instinct was to go after you. Then, doubts set in, a lot of them. What if you hated me? What if I wasn't good? What if it was because you didn't fuck me? What if I hurt you? I wanted you again so badly but I wanted you to have the best and I know I not the best."
Forth's hands had never stopped moving, he could feel some of the tension leaving Beam's body as he talked, so he continued. "I've always had a bad "What if" problem... Oh, it's not a self esteem problem, it's a worry thing. So, I don't want to worry about another person. But I began to worry about you a lot. After that kiss, and you didn't kiss me back, I thought it meant you hated me. So I ran away to think. I decided to forget you but I couldn't."
Beam raised his head and looked at Forth, "But..."
Forth tucked it back down, kissing the top. "Let me finish. So I watched you from a distance. Most people don't notice me if I'm not wearing black. It's quite funny how I stand out in my normal clothes, but dressed like everyone else, I'm ignored. So, I could watch you to my heart's content. At breakfast, and dinner and sometimes, I'd even be in the elevator with you. I think you knew, at least, you seemed to be nervous. But I had to be near you or I'd go crazy."
Beam was starting to go crazy from the small circles Forth kept drawing on his thighs. And now, he had so many questions, but he stayed quiet. Forth continued, "I saw you scream sometimes, I saw you cry and there were times I wanted to run and pick you up and cuddle you, but to me, you'd given a very clear back off sign." Forth sighed deeply.
"I'm a fool, an idiot just like you said."
Beam twisted in his lap and grabbed Forth's face with both hands, pulled it to his. He looked closely at his face and said, "You're my idiot." and kissed him.
Forth growled low in his throat and took over. It was as if a switch had been thrown. The talking was finished for now... things were not settled yet. But a beginning had been started.
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A/N: So that's it! I'm thinking about a sequel but I'm not sure... It definitely would be 18+ if I wrote it, plus have more interaction with secondary characters, thus making it more complicated. Or, try something new?
