On my knees for you (Boyxboy)

Eleven

Im really really sorry for such shit updating.... 

Been really busy and all that, anyways, here is an updateeee

(havent looked over for mistakes so im sorryy if there are loads)

P.O.V. Harry

I focus on the ink marks and the scratches on my dull,wooden desk. I can sense him in the room. What even is this? How does someone affect me like this so quickly?

What the fuck even is this, Ive spoken to him like twice. And you've had a breakdown in his arms you fucker my subconcious mind throws at me. I attempt to push him away but there is no use.

I know that I will never ever let him see that side of me again, why the hell did I even take down my walls infront of him anyways? Taking them down only occurs when I'm in the company of my blades and my good friend Mr.SubconciousFucker. 

I see him by my side but I'm too angry at myself to even acknowledge him. I wont let him close to me, I dont need him anyways.

I think back to the moment i realised I loved him, I laugh at myself, that was pretty spontaneous. Proabably some fucked up emotions trying to appear after years of extinction. I've taught myself how to not feel, how to just become numb, and its working great for me. 

I smell his cologne and I dont know if I want to faint or puke. Its intense and his presence in only making it harder for me to concentrate. I need to pass this class. 

The teacher gives out some papers and stare at them, attepting to answer the simple questions. I should know this. Short term memory and stress. But I cant even seem to answer the section where I have to write my name. 

I feel my palms become most and my leg begins to shake. I know these symptoms way too well and I know what is going to happen next in a short amount of time and I need fresh air. now. 

I raise my hand, my arms shaking. 

'Yes Harry'

'Coul...Could I please go to the bathroom?'

'Go, be right back tho, we are starting a new topic after this.'

I grab for my bag and rush to stand up. In my haste my chair falls behind me and makes an un-necessary loud sound. I gain more attentin than wanted and it only encourages me to get the hell out of here quicker. 

I dont even turn around to pick it up as I just head to the door immediately. 

'Harry, I dont see why you need your bag......'

I dont even let her finish as I rush out the door and make a quick exit through the main entrance. 

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Its cold outside and the rain prickles down my skin surrounding me. My hair is stuck to my face and neck and I can only imagine my lips being very very blue. My teeth rattle and I tighten my grip around my bag even more.

I need to get home before I do something stupid. 

REALLY SHORT UPDATE IM REALLY SORRY.

i just wanted to get this out there so you all have something to read, not much but something. Im sorryyyy dont hate meeee

Ill update a longer chapter soon okai?

Thoughts/ Comments? LIke Vote? :)

Han x