Smith-ereenes

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I'm in love. Her name is Brooke. Beautiful Brooke. What a beautiful name. Brooke. Brooke. Brooke Brooke Brooke. So beautiful. I just want to scream to her how I feel. I love her! I LOVE HER!

Okay so my name is Smith. I met Brooke in a therapy class. I have high anxiety. -At least that's all Brooke knows. I also am bipolar and I have ADHD. So basically I can be totally awesome and chill, or goofy and crazy. Either way I am me.

My high anxiety is caused by only one day. It was last year. I was at a sweet sixteen with my best bud. We were screwing around getting wasted. My friends house was by a train track. Hour by hour we became a little more sober. At least enough to painfully remember and regret this awful memory.

Everybody was playing truth or dare. (this is before I met Brooke) I said dare, like the show off I can be. I was dared to hook-up with the skank, Nancy. We did not do it. She did it with Tom, not me. Anyway, my friend Walt picked dare. he was dared to dance nude in the train tracks. He was completely wasted.it was about 3am when he did it, do no one had thought that a train would come by. Well I fell asleep with Walt on the train tracks. It was about eight o'clock in the morning. I could her the train coming. I screamed as it hurried towards us. Walt wouldn't wake up! It was too late. he was gone.

I later contacted the family and authorities.

So now I'm here. Living a lie to the one thing good that could ever happen to me. Really Smith? I am so stupid. I wonder if she knows I am bipolar? I wonder if she knows I have ADHD? Sometimes I want to kill myself. I don't know myself anymore.

Brooke is a year younger than me. But she is still perfect. When I first talked to her and listened to her, I knew she was special. She talked realistically. She knew what was up. She was funny too, yet she always his that beautiful smile.

Her cuts bother me so much. I wish every kiss I could give her would make them go away. I don't know why she does this to herself. I do not understand. I wish she would explain what she was experiencing.

Facts about Brooke
Curled black hair with purple on the ends.
Tall
Brown eyes
Kind
Lonely
Smart
Funny
Bonus: I LOVE HER SO MUCH

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